I'm in a funk

[rilooyahParticipant]

A nice relaxing pedicure usually brings me out of a funk!

That being said, as one who graduated Law Sch in 09, worked for a guy for 6ish months after I passed the 2 Bars I took and then started my own firm…I think that realizing Law Sch is OVER and your body processing that takes a toll on everyone. I mean, I thought school was SO STRESSFUL, then the 2 months of studying for the bar was SO STRESSSSSSFUL, then actually practicing and knowing I was screwing up on a daily basis was SOOOOO STRESSFUL and finally OMG my own firm SOOOOO DAMN STRESSFUL. haha. But really- any big change like that is enough to put one into a funk.

I agree that you shouldnt turn down a free LLM program, and also that maybe you should scale back a bit for a few semesters. And practicing is tough. Im personally incapable of reading anything other than fluff magazines or stupid fiction books outside of work. And as complicated as movies are now in general, I can only concentrate on like the cartoon ones and silly rom-coms. I just CANT care enough to pay that much attention to 50 characters and their nuanced role in this MUST SEE THRILLER (it goes back in time! then forward to the future! then circles back somehow to the original opening scene! omgzlls!)! And on that same note, to really “keep up” you have to embrace change, bc the law is constantly changing/updating/blah!!

I suppose all that isnt going to get you outta your funk…but uuhh…I feel you. And I need a d*mn vacation.

[Addie PrayParticipant]

IWanna, the truth is that 1st year associates are worthless. I know you want to feel worthful (yes, it’s a word), but you won’t for at least 2 years. I didn’t start to “get it” until year 2 or 3. That’s when, finally, I started handling stuff I had handled before and I had a sort of rhythm about my practice. It was never repetitive by any means but I started to “get” the shit I was working with most often – written discovery, motions, memos, charges, pleadings, etc. … It just takes a couple of years. What sucks about the practice of law (in my experience) is that you start to get comfortable with your level of responsibility and then BAM they give you more or change it up… So, basically, you never really plateau and get to coast. Practicing law sucks, but you knew that going into it, right? I didn’t. I was duped.

Does that make you feel better? If not, feel free to call. I’m at a hotel in No Where, Ontario. I think it’s funny how on one side of the invisible line it’s all French – the food, the language, even the look in people’s eyes. Then you leave Quebec and enter Ontario and BAM it’s like Michigan up in here. That’s my last deep thought for the day.

[iwannatalktosampsonParticipant]

Alright I’m not out of my funk yet – but I’m going to try to really hard to be out of it by Monday. I hate feeling like I’m giving a half ass effort, and I have the last two weeks. I am getting drinks and a pedicure with friends this afternoon, and plan on studying/working by the pool tomorrow and maybe Sunday. I need to get caught up – but in a relaxing way. Then I’m going to try really hard to put on my best – go get ‘em attitude Monday. Okay so 5 hours of billable time – starting —–NOW! If anyone sees me DW-ing, tell me to get back to work. And promise you guys won’t bond without me. It will just make it that much harder to stay away.

[iwannatalktosampsonParticipant]

Alright – I’m starting fresh this week. I got my project finished that was making me feel like an idiot. I didn’t ace it – but there are (luckily) no grades in the real world. Now I get to spend all my time on my awesome criminal project. While I’m getting my professional life together – I have decided I’m also going to get my fat ass situation figured out.

I got my Ipad finally – and I’m going to download some sweet apps. Does anyone have any suggestions? I want some cool photo editting ones. I never really take pictures of anything, including me, but I want to start because if I think I’m fat now I can’t imagine how much worse it’s going to get in 20 years. My mom always talks about how sad she is that she only has pictures of her and my dad starting when they had kids, they never really thought they would need pictures of *just the two of them*, but now looking back she regrets it. So I am going to make a conscious effort to take more pictures. That might also help motivate me to not eat.

[bittergaymarkParticipant]

Yeah, I am in a hopeless funk. Honestly, I’m hoping my plane crashes after I fly home to visit my family one last time as there simply isn’t viable any solution right now to my financial problems…

[iwannatalktosampsonParticipant]

Mark that makes me really sad. Don’t say that. Go on a run. Do some push ups. Find a hott boyfriend. I hate money issues. My brother always says, “money doesn’t buy you happiness, but it can buy a jet ski which would make me really happy” and he kinda has a point. Or my other favorite – “money doesn’t solve your problems” – “no, but it does solve my money problems”. Hang in there – I think there is an elton john in your future for sure.

[rachelParticipant]

I’m sorry Mark

Money problems are the worst, since they just hang over all your other problems no matter what. But you are awesome, and you will get through this.

[rachelParticipant]

Ugh, and Sampson, I’m pretty sure the people who say that are the people who’ve never had to worry how they were going to pay the next month’s rent.

[bittergaymarkParticipant]

Eh, at some point you realize that your ship AIN’T coming in… But yeah. Money WOULD solve all my problems. It really would. Sampson’s brother is totally right. As of right now, I must spend forty hours a week just worrying about money… I waste so much time on it, it would be funny…if only…

[iwannatalktosampsonParticipant]

Oh and I forgot the best part of my life – I got to spend like 45 minutes today photocopying exhibits and prepping for a hearing and I LOVED IT. I know attorneys that hate doing that stuff – but I love it. I should have been a secretary. It would have saved me 100,000 and clearly photocopying is my passion.

[CaraParticipant]

Gah, I wish I were really really rich, because then I could just throw money at random people. Also I´d give like a huge amount to Wendy, for an international meet-up, all expenses paid. Also, I´d like to have a huge company, so I could just give jobs to people I want to have jobs. That´s my little “what-if” scenario that I really enjoy.

Sadly, I´m not rich. So I can just offer a; I´m sorry BGM. I had to eat spaghetti with butter and salt for a week last month, because I didn´t have any money. Also, I had to lie to a professor why the money I have to pay upfront for a trip didn´t come into his account on time. There, better?

[bittergaymarkParticipant]

sampson: That is halarious. I’ve always HATED that, but now that I think about it, that is probably simply due to the fact that when I’ve had to do it, I’ve always been under INSANE deadlines — not to mention saddled with a machine that keeps finding new and previously unknown ways to break down… PAPERJAMS…

[bittergaymarkParticipant]

Cara, I have soooooo done that. Lately, with me it’s brown rice. (I burned out already on spaghetti…) Ugh, I am so sick and tired of brown rice. Yeah, I think I have conceivably prepared it every possible way. That and freaking potatoes. On the upside, I have finally started to lose those pesky extra ten pounds. Hell, I’ve lost 15… Nothing is more motivating for a diet than simply being bored out of your mind by what’s in the fridge…

[CaraParticipant]

Looking forward to the brown rice! We should swap recipes, I have a really good one for mashed potatoes

Potatoes
Milk (borrowed from roomate)
Salt and pepper (stolen at fast-food restaurants)

Cook, mash with milk, salt and pepper to taste. You can almost not taste the desperation!

[bittergaymarkParticipant]

Oh, I’ve actually gotten really creative with pototoes. I’ve made soups. I’ve baked. I’ve fried. Yes, I’ve even mashed…. Oh, and concocted about about six different variations of potato salad, too.

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