I’m feeling very helpless. We got some bad news today, but still don’t know enough to be able to guess whether she will recover. I saw her in the ICU on Saturday and it was the scariest thing I’ve ever seen in my life.
My boyfriend sent me a text 2 hours ago with the not-so-good news. I asked him if I could come back to the hospital to be with him and his family, because I’m having a hard time concentrating at work and I want to be there (to be honest, I don’t really know his sister very well… I’ve only met her a handful of times, so as awful as I feel, I’m sure it’s a million times worse for him and his mom and his sister’s husband). It’s hard because I don’t want to intrude on family grief, but I also want to be involved and to be there for everyone.
So I asked him if I could be there, I told him I would like to be there with everyone but that I understand if they would rather have privacy. He said they were going home to get her some of her own things and that he would text me when they were heading back to the hospital. So I haven’t heard back yet.
I sort of feel like just taking off, leaving work and heading over there, but there’s no point if they aren’t there yet. I’m very scared, I keep saying over and over again, please let her be ok, please let her be ok… I’m scared for her, and I’m scared because I can’t imagine how my boyfriend is feeling.
Le Pinch 11 months, 3 weeks ago.
