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“My Boyfriend is Sleeping With His Cousin”

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My boyfriend is very sexually controversial, from wanting an open relationship (which I don’t) to cross dressing, bisexuality, BDSM, meeting men on the internet and in rest stops and video stores, explicit sexual texting with ex-girlfriends, lying to me and even cheating on me. He confessed to most after about a year, and I was accepting of him and all of this kinkery. Our relationship even started as solely BDSM, which is not my scene incidentally. I usually last only about five years in a relationship, but we have been pretty strong and were even trying to get pregnant for over a year.

The straw that broke this relationship’s back was the fact that I discovered he has been making out with his first cousin when I am out of town. I had found out about this in the past and broke up with him because this was a hard limit for me. But we got back together and, three years later, it has happened again. This time he admits that he had sex with her in the past but that that was years ago. His excuse is that they are “kissing cousins” and that it’s not incest between two consenting adults — it’s only incest between parent and child. (We obviously do no share the same dictionary for either definition).

I could handle all the other things, but I’m completely disgusted by this revelation. I can’t even be in the same room with him let alone at any future family functions with her. This is all especially difficult because I am three months pregnant with his child. Am I being too rigid? Overreacting? He claims I’m just looking for an excuse to end things because we are at the 5-year mark. — Grossed out and Confused

First of all, five years is a long time for a relationship, so to say you’ve “only” lasted five years in past relationships is an odd statement, though not half as odd as the rest of your letter. What I don’t understand is why you would remain in a relationship with someone whose sexual desires deviated so much from your own and what you were comfortable with. Just the fact that your boyfriend wanted an open relationship and you didn’t should have been a deal-breaker if you had any self-respect, but obviously it wasn’t. And, apparently, the cheating, lying, cross-dressing, bisexuality, BDSM, meeting men on the internet and in rest stops and video stores, and sexting with ex-girlfriends was all acceptable, too. Okaaaay.

So now, after spending a year trying to get knocked up by this winner, you’ve apparently found your true deal-breaker — incest — and you’re wondering if you’re being too rigid. The answer is no. No, you’re not being too rigid. There are many words I can think of to describe a woman who deliberately got pregnant by a man who lies to her and cheats all the time and sexts with exes and meets random men at rest stops, and “rigid” is not on the list.

So, what do you do now? You do what you should have done years ago and break up with the guy. It’s too bad you are pregnant with his baby, but, really, having a child — if you decide to keep it, that is — is even more reason you should distance yourself from this guy and his reckless lifestyle. Go see a family attorney and make sure you have your T’s crossed and your I’s dotted if you decide to bring this baby into the world and raise it yourself. And start setting some very clear boundaries — if not for yourself, for the benefit of your child.
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avatar SasLinna April 23, 2014, 9:13 am

Cheating and lying doesn’t belong in the same category as kink. Cheating is not a kink – it’s just shitty behavior.

avatar joanna April 23, 2014, 9:15 am

FWIW, the scientific definition of incest only matters in case of parent/child relations and aunt/uncle/niece/nephew. Some states even allow first cousins to marry.

avatar joanna April 23, 2014, 9:17 am

And then it only applies in terms of procreation.

However the social definition of incest varies upon whomever you talk to.

avatar lets_be_honest April 23, 2014, 9:41 am

Does it though?

avatar joanna April 23, 2014, 9:43 am

Some states allow first cousin marriage. Jerry Lee Lewis married his first cousin and I think so did Elvis at one point but I’m not sure about that one.

avatar lets_be_honest April 23, 2014, 9:45 am

What does that have to do with the definition of incest? Pretty sure everyone on here would be in agreement as to what incest means. I really don’t think it varies person to person. If you are hooking up with a family member, its incest. No?

avatar joanna April 23, 2014, 9:54 am

Thinking everyone has the same thoughts as you is a dangerous precedent to set.

avatar lets_be_honest April 23, 2014, 9:56 am

Thinking everyone uses the same dictionary is not though.

GatorGirl GatorGirl April 23, 2014, 10:00 am

Dictionary.com actually leaves quite a lot of room for interpretation

“1. sexual intercourse between closely related persons.
2. the crime of sexual intercourse, cohabitation, or marriage between persons within the degrees of consanguinity or affinity wherein marriage is legally forbidden. ”
“closely related” has A LOT of room for interpretation.

avatar lets_be_honest April 23, 2014, 10:04 am

I guess I’m stupid for not thinking that leaves a lot of room for interpretation? It seems clear to me. I’m not being snarky here, I’m honestly surprised anyone is unsure of what incest means to the general public.

GatorGirl GatorGirl April 23, 2014, 10:20 am

Well, like Joanna says though, in some states it’s perfectly legal and not frowned upon to marry your first cousin. So I really don’t think there is a blanket definition that applies to the “general public”. I, for example, would consider my second cousins (and honestly my third because of how closely we all grew up) to be “closely related” but you might not.

GatorGirl GatorGirl April 23, 2014, 10:20 am

Well, like Joanna says though, in some states it’s perfectly legal and not frowned upon to marry your first cousin. So I really don’t think there is a blanket definition that applies to the “general public”. I, for example, would consider my second cousins (and honestly my third because of how closely we all grew up) to be “closely related” but you might not.

avatar lets_be_honest April 23, 2014, 10:25 am

I still think, regardless of legality or whether you grew up together or not, hooking up with a cousin, or any relative, is incest. Even if its not frowned upon, its still incest. To each his own though, I guess.

theattack theattack April 23, 2014, 10:36 am

It’s legal in my state to marry your first cousin, and it is VERY much frowned upon. I don’t think the legality necessarily lines up with the social opinions.

GatorGirl GatorGirl April 23, 2014, 10:40 am

Oh, I agree TA. I wasn’t trying to say just because it’s legal it’s accepted. I think your point below about this being silly to argue is spot on though, this subject can be discussed from a lot of angles.

avatar Portia April 23, 2014, 11:27 am

This makes me think of the episode of 30 Rock where Liz ends up dating a guy that she ends up being like third cousins with. At one point they are like, on three say how far apart in relations do you have to be for it to be ok. The guy says third cousins, Liz says never.

CatsMeow CatsMeow April 23, 2014, 10:29 am

I feel like the LW’s boyfriend is insisting it’s not “incest” because it’s not abusive or illegal? They are both consenting adults, so he doesn’t want to call it incest, although I always thought incest was any sex, consensual or not, between blood relatives.

avatar iseeshiny April 23, 2014, 9:57 am

Jerry Lee Lewis married his thirteen year old first cousin. Juuuuust saying.

avatar joanna April 23, 2014, 9:59 am

That doesn’t change the fact that it was legal when he did it.

avatar lets_be_honest April 23, 2014, 10:00 am

You keep saying it was legal as if that makes it not incest. I don’t really understand this argument. Just because its legal, doesn’t make it something else. For example, pot is legal in some places. That doesn’t mean in those places, its not pot and is something else. Its still pot. You know what I mean?

avatar joanna April 23, 2014, 10:02 am

I was talking about the SCIENTIFIC definition versus the social definition. Look it up on Wikipedia if you want more information.

avatar iseeshiny April 23, 2014, 10:09 am

And pedantics aside, the incest or not-technically-incest-based-on-certain-definitions are really not actually related to this LW’s issues, which are the fact that she is in a trainwreck of a relationship and decided the best thing to do would be to try to add a baby to it.

avatar iseeshiny April 23, 2014, 10:06 am

Allllll I’m saying is “Jerry Lee Lewis did it” isn’t perhaps the best justification for anything ever.

Cassie Cassie April 23, 2014, 4:35 pm

I’m really confused… is wanting to follow in Jerry Lewis’s footsteps a thing now?

avatar iseeshiny April 23, 2014, 6:40 pm

Haha lord I hope not. No, the nesting of the threads have made it a little difficult to follow but way up at the top of the conversation joanne mentioned that it’s legal to marry your cousin in some states, and that Jerry Lee Lewis married his cousin. So I thought I’d mention that said cousin was thirteen at the time and maybe that wasn’t the best example of how it’s totally cool to marry your cousin, since that just didn’t sound like a very good family dynamic, incest or not-incest aside.

Kate B. Kate B April 23, 2014, 10:39 am

What is considering legal is not always what is considered moral, and there’s the rub. People’s morals differ a lot. I would consider this incest, but that’s me.

Kate B. Kate B. April 23, 2014, 10:40 am

*considered*

LlamaPajamas LlamaPajamas April 23, 2014, 9:44 am

I’m pretty sure a post-menopausal woman who can no longer get pregnant and has sex with her son is still incest…

katie katie April 23, 2014, 10:24 am

Incest is a thing that talks about genetics, not legalities. It is true that it can vary -consanguineous vs. affinity relations, and then the degree of relation (first cousin vs. third cousin)- but this is incest if we are talking about two genetically related cousins. If they are related by affinity, that can be different, but is still considered incest in some parts of the world.

Addie Pray Addie Pray April 23, 2014, 9:22 am

Oh sweet! Because I have a hot cousin.

Addie Pray Addie Pray April 23, 2014, 9:22 am

^ Kidding, geez ^

rainbow rainbow April 23, 2014, 9:45 am

I have one too! I kept away because he was trying to become a priest, then suddenly he quit priest school and got married =( This is what I get for respecting vocations.

lemongrass lemongrass April 23, 2014, 10:25 am

I have a hot 3rd cousin but still, no.

theattack theattack April 23, 2014, 10:27 am

I think this whole argument about incest or not is kind of irrelevant because there are three different ways to talk about it: legally, socially, and scientifically. It’s not worth arguing across the three.

Cassie Cassie April 23, 2014, 4:37 pm

I feel a Venn diagram coming on.

Crochet.Ninja Crochet.Ninja April 23, 2014, 11:14 am

cousins = still incest. yep, they can still marry in some places – but that doesn’t necessarily make it good. I know a person who’s parents are first cousins, and there have been issues as a result.

avatar WAPS April 23, 2014, 12:11 pm

And I know people whose parents are not first cousins and have issues. And I know people whose parents are first cousins and don’t have issues. Anecdotes are not data.

LlamaPajamas LlamaPajamas April 23, 2014, 9:17 am

Holy shit. I’m not as concerned about this guy’s kinks as I am about why you’re willing to put up with absolutely anything to stay with him. You should step back for a second and recognize that you just asked if it’s a dealbreaker that your boyfriend/the father of your unborn child is having an incestuous relationship with his cousin. Never mind the fact that he cheats on you with other women and men and you’re not on the same page sexually. You’re not too rigid! On the contrary, you’re waaaaaaaaaaaay to permissive and accommodating.

LlamaPajamas LlamaPajamas April 23, 2014, 9:19 am

*too permissive, sorry.

avatar TheOtherOtherMe April 23, 2014, 9:18 am

This guy sounds like a sex addict.

avatar joanna April 23, 2014, 9:38 am

I think calling the guy a sex addict gives him an excuse for his behavior. Like oh no he couldn’t help it, he was addicted.

Maybe I’m a little old-fashioned or whatever but sticking your dick into someone’s vagina is a CHOICE not an addiction.

Kate B. Kate B. April 23, 2014, 10:41 am

Amen.

bagge72 bagge72 April 23, 2014, 11:16 am

Even if that was the case, doesn’t mean she had to stick around with him. If I didn’t want to be with somebody who drank, I wouldn’t stick with that person, because they were addicted instead of just a casual drinker.

GatorGirl GatorGirl April 23, 2014, 9:22 am

All of the kink aside: he has lied to you, cheated on you, pushed you outside of your comfort zone, and you’ve been on and off again. These are all big huge glaring red flags the MOA!

GatorGirl GatorGirl April 23, 2014, 9:26 am

ugh, morning typing. Should be “big huge glaring red flags that you should MOA!”

Fabelle Fabelle April 23, 2014, 9:26 am

So, yeah, WWS especially this: “What I don’t understand is why you would remain in a relationship with someone whose sexual desires deviated so much from your own and what you were comfortable with”. It’s not that hard to find a dude whose sexual proclivities align more with your own, & in a case like this where one partner is SO FAR onto one end of the spectrum, sexual compatibility is pretty important.
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As an aside, since I don’t have time to get into a real advice-y comment right now, I genuinely love how this letter is written? Like, I love the “voice”.

avatar Lily in NYC April 23, 2014, 9:28 am

The cousin thing doesn’t bother me much. To me, the real problem is that you two want completely different things from this relationship yet you are desperately trying to make this work. If BDSM isn’t your thing, then why did you settle for having a solely BDSM relationship when you first got together? If you don’t want an open relationship and he does, then why are you still with him? If you want someone to be faithful to you, this is not the guy. I don’t even blame him because it doens’t seem like he was lying about who he is to you. It’s more like you are lying to yourself and him trying to be accepting of things that don’t make you happy. Find someone who has similar values and you will be much happier. WTF Wednesday, for sure.

rainbow dra.nada April 23, 2014, 9:35 am

“All of this kinkery” —> THIS WAS AWESOME. I loved the phrase. I’ll use it FOREVER.

I SAY, OLD CHAP, WHAT IS ALL OF THIS KINKERY?

LW, you seem to have a problem distinguishing between ethical kinkery and shady behavior. BDSM, cross-dressing and open relationships belong in the first category. Cheating on you, lying to you, etc? Second.

avatar csp April 23, 2014, 9:35 am

LW, when you wrote this letter, did you see just how crazy this sounds?

veritek33 veritek33 April 23, 2014, 9:36 am

I just can’t, this morning. I mean, really. REALLY?

Sweetie, please leave. That’s all I can say.

rainbow rainbow April 23, 2014, 9:37 am

“All of this kinkery” —> THIS WAS AWESOME. I loved the phrase. I’ll use it FOREVER.

I SAY, OLD CHAP, WHAT IS ALL OF THIS KINKERY?

LW, you seem to have a problem distinguishing between ethical kinkery and shady behavior. BDSM, cross-dressing and open relationships belong in the first category. Cheating on you, lying to you, etc? Second.

Is this even true? It’s just too clueless and funny.

honeybeenicki honeybeenicki April 23, 2014, 9:39 am

Great, now I’m going to walk around all day saying not just “all of this kinkery” but also “old chap”!

Fabelle Fabelle April 23, 2014, 10:08 am

haha YES, that’s what got me too. Love it.

avatar lets_be_honest April 23, 2014, 9:40 am

I have a headache. Why do they all have end with “and now i’m pregnant?”

LlamaPajamas LlamaPajamas April 23, 2014, 9:41 am

For real.

avatar lets_be_honest April 23, 2014, 9:43 am

I actually let out an audible sigh when I got to that part. :(

muchachaenlaventana muchachaenlaventana April 23, 2014, 10:18 am

Me too, I mean at this point it just makes me sad. Sad for for the future baby who does not deserve to be brought into such dysfunction.

katie Katie April 23, 2014, 10:00 am

I really thought we were out of the woods with that when the LW was “trying”. Damn it.

avatar bethany April 23, 2014, 10:10 am

Yeah, me too. What a bummer.

bagge72 bagge72 April 23, 2014, 11:09 am

You had to have known that was coming!

honeybeenicki honeybeenicki April 23, 2014, 9:40 am

…. What the actual fuck?!
LW – get out of this relationship now. This is insane. He’s a lying cheater and you’ve basically said it’s ok by staying with him. It sucks that you’re bringing a child into this mess, but you can’t stay for just that reason. You need to leave and leave now.
Also, how old are you that you’ve had multiple 5 year relationships? Old enough to know better is my guess.

rainbow rainbow April 23, 2014, 9:43 am

It sounds like the time spent single and soulshearching between 5-year relationships was 15-20 days at most.

avatar joanna April 23, 2014, 9:50 am

That makes me wonder how she’s still of child-bearing age at that.

avatar Miss MJ April 23, 2014, 10:23 am

I seriously doubt she went years between relationships, so, it’s possible: 15-20; 20-25; 25-30; 30-35; 35-40…

othy othy April 23, 2014, 12:04 pm

Multiple could technically be 2. I’m guessing she’s in her third or fourth long term relationship and is around 30 or 35.

Guy Friday Guy Friday April 23, 2014, 9:52 am

You know, I’m sorry, but I’ve got to go a little BGM on this letter. Setting aside all of the sexual proclivities and “cheating” (and I put that in quotes because I’m not sure I would define “cheating” as “telling someone you want an open relationship and then HAVING an open relationship,” which it seems like this guy did), you found out that he was making out with his first cousin, dumped him because the incest disgusted you . . . and then went back to him and got pregnant by him? Seriously? What ridiculous reason could you possibly have for going back to him? You’re not saying he went to some 12-step non-incest program, and you’re not saying he actually changed any of his behavior. Yet despite your disgust of all of his sexual philosophies, you thought he was the guy TO HAVE A CHILD WITH?!.
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Yes, of course, move on if you don’t like him and the way he operates. But honestly, in this case, I think YOU are the one in the wrong here, not because you don’t want to swing the way he does but because you entered a situation knowing what it was, has the opportunity to leave it and CAME BACK, and are now complaining about it like it has somehow been sprung upon you. I’d advise you to seek some counseling/guidance/etc. to dig into why you returned to him in the first place (which isn’t to say you couldn’t be into any or all of the things he’s into; I don’t mean to imply any of that does or doesn’t need counseling).

Also, as an aside: while I’m always a fan of parents who aren’t together clearly laying out placement and visitation and custody and the like, please don’t make the common assumption that a lot of separated parents do that sexual proclivities of the other party are going to negatively impact visitation times or who gets to be around your child (i.e., the cousin). Like I said, a lot of family courts are now adopting the “you knew what you were getting yourself into” argument to situations like this. That being said, of course get more formal legal advice from someone practicing in your county, because they’ll know what the courts will and won’t want to hear.

LlamaPajamas LlamaPajamas April 23, 2014, 9:57 am

“12-step non-incest program” – I love it! So many good quotes this morning. But also so much WTF.

honeybeenicki honeybeenicki April 23, 2014, 10:16 am

I totally agree with you except that I do think he’s cheating unless she agreed to the open relationship. She said she doesn’t want one (but I guess didn’t technically say that she said no) because an open relationship requires both parties to agree. I could go home and tell my husband that I want an open relationship, but if he says no and I still do it, then I’m cheating. But you’re totally right that she got herself into it this deep by staying and then by leaving but coming back! Who does that?
And I must say that you win the internet today for coming up with a 12-step non-incest program. I almost spit my Dr Pepper all over my desk thanks to that.

avatar iseeshiny April 23, 2014, 9:52 am

That’s right, it’s time for another episode of What The Actual Fuck Wednesday.

avatar Banana April 23, 2014, 9:52 am

Is it Friday?

avatar iseeshiny April 23, 2014, 9:53 am

Haha, great minds.

avatar Banana April 23, 2014, 9:58 am

Hah I know!

avatar Banana April 23, 2014, 9:58 am

Okay, actually, on reflection this letter makes me wonder if there’s even more going on under the surface that she hasn’t mentioned — maybe emotional abuse and manipulation. Look at it this way: often the nuttiest-sounding letter writers are just looking for Wendy to confirm what they want to hear. So in the case of someone who has been with this guy for ages despite all these red flags, you’d think she’d be writing in because she secretly hopes Wendy will tell her there’s still hope and they can work it out and live happily ever after together. But she’s not. She seems to be seeking confirmation from Wendy that they should break up, and mentions that the boyfriend is ridiculing her for wanting to bail on the relationship. To me, that says that she’s been gaslighted for a really, really long time.

avatar SasLinna April 23, 2014, 10:04 am

That’s possible. It certainly sounds like she’ll just do anything the bf says. She seems to have no real “enough is enough!” response.

avatar Banana April 23, 2014, 10:13 am

Yeah. I mean, as I was reading, I was shaking my head as vigorously as the rest of us. But her level of passivity really is odd. There’s gotta be something else going on there that makes her feel like she has to stick with him, and accept his behavior. The fact that she asks if she’s too rigid makes me wonder if all along he’s just been trying to convince her that his behavior is totally normal and SHE’S the weird one for not being okay with it. Now, whether his kinks are “normal” or not is kind of beside the point. The important part is whether he’s violating her boundaries. But it sounds to me, just a little, that maybe he’s been manipulating or even emotionally abusing her for a long, long time to convince her that she doesn’t deserve the right to draw the line around what she’s comfortable with. It sounds a little like he took advantage of her passivity and then manipulated it. But now I’m just 100% speculating.

avatar joanna April 23, 2014, 11:10 am

I’m wondering right now if their BDSM relationship means he’s dom and she’s sub. That could play into a lot of it.

LlamaPajamas LlamaPajamas April 23, 2014, 10:08 am

This part of the letter really stood out to me: “Our relationship even started as solely BDSM, which is not my scene incidentally”. I’m curious as to why she’s been participating in these “kinks” from the start when they’ve never been her thing? It’s one think to experiment and decide you don’t like something, but another to start a relationship as solely BDSM when you’re not into it. LW, have you experiences abuse in the past that’s clouding your ability to recognize and maintain healthy relationships?

avatar ktfran April 23, 2014, 10:10 am

I get what you’re saying. I really do. Hell, I was once in a super manipulative/bordering emotional abuse relationship. But…. that doesn’t explain the trying to get pregnant, or actually getting pregnant thing. Unless he was pressuring her. If that were the case, I would probably tend to agree more with this. The way I read this letter, she wanted to get pregnant with this man.

I’m guessing it’s more she was ok with this fucked up relationship for whatever fucked up reason. Then BAM. she got pregnant. And now she’s not so sure if she wants her baby to live with this lifestyle. Now she’s looking for permission to get out. At least, I hope that’s the case.

avatar Banana April 23, 2014, 10:44 am

Hm, good point. I mean, it’s definitely 100% speculation on my part. I wonder, though, given all the other pressure he’s clearly put on her to accept his behavior/stop defending her personal boundaries, whether it’s totally out of the question that he’d pressure her to have a kid with him too. Plus, regardless of manipulation or abuse, she doesn’t sound like she was that assertive (or a great decision-maker) to begin with, so maybe she also just really wanted a kid and thought he was her only shot.
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Besides the possible manipulation and gaslighting, it also sounds like maybe at the beginning she had a romanticized idea of him in her head, like he was a Christian Grey or something and she found it attractive despite the fact that she wasn’t personally comfortable with the stuff he wanted to do with her.

avatar thatgirl April 23, 2014, 12:24 pm

So I wasn’t the only one who thought 50 Shades while reading this letter??

avatar ktfran April 23, 2014, 1:05 pm

There is for sure a billion kinds or wrong here with both parties. I soooo feel sad for this child coming into the world.

avatar peachy April 23, 2014, 10:02 am

LW, for the sake of your unborn child and your own peace of mind, please get tested for STDs and HIV. Then put on a huge biker boot with spikes on it and kick this idiot boyfriend to the curb. Makes sure it hurts.

avatar joanna April 23, 2014, 10:07 am

Just because he’s kinky does not mean he has unprotected sex.

avatar bethany April 23, 2014, 10:14 am

Sure it’s doesn’t mean that, but he’s been having sex with someone outside of their relationship. It’s better to be safe than sorry. Plus, some STDs can be passed to the unborn child, so it seems like a no-brainer to get tested.

honeybeenicki honeybeenicki April 23, 2014, 10:19 am

Definitely agree with you.

lemongrass lemongrass April 23, 2014, 10:28 am

They test all pregnant women here. It’s a great practice.

GatorGirl GatorGirl April 23, 2014, 10:38 am

I believe they do here in FL too. At my routine check up the midwife said something about it being standard practice.

GatorGirl GatorGirl April 23, 2014, 10:38 am

Also, routine as in annual visit. Not pregnant.

lemongrass lemongrass April 23, 2014, 10:40 am

My doctor tests for a few things with my pap every year but HIV/AIDS is a blood test, I had never been tested for it until I got pregnant. I opted out this time though since I had just been tested 2 years ago and I highly, highly doubt there is any change in my STD status.

avatar Banana April 23, 2014, 10:45 am

MIDWIFE? Yep, I saw that one!

avatar Banana April 23, 2014, 10:47 am

Okay, I immediately regretted posted that because 1) might have been a slip of the keyboard and 2) don’t want to pressure anyone into spilling. But I’m not logged in (just doing the fill-in every time you post thing) and I can’t :( Sorry GG. I take it back!!

GatorGirl GatorGirl April 23, 2014, 10:54 am

I’m not pregnant, I promise! I decided to start going to a midwife’s office (rather than a gyno) this year because we wanted to establish a relationship with them and get pre-conception advice. Since we over think EVERYTHING. No babies yet :) There was plenty of wine drinking last night.

avatar Banana April 23, 2014, 10:56 am

Cool! That sounds like a really good idea. And sorry again for putting you on the spot :(

GatorGirl GatorGirl April 23, 2014, 11:01 am

No worries! You’re totally fine. I’ll probs update when the goalie is finally pulled.

avatar lets_be_honest April 23, 2014, 11:14 am

probs?!

GatorGirl GatorGirl April 23, 2014, 11:32 am

Do I not get to keep some things private?? haha.

avatar lets_be_honest April 23, 2014, 11:36 am

No, you do not! Come on. You should know this by now.

lemongrass lemongrass April 23, 2014, 11:02 am

That’s cool that you can do that. We don’t have the option here to go to a midwife before pregnancy, probably because it is all paid for by the government and midwife’s are paid more per patient than OBs. However my midwife would meet with someone for free to have a chat, I’m sure. I love my midwife!

GatorGirl GatorGirl April 23, 2014, 11:07 am

Yeah, I was pretty happy about it. They midwife is also a nurse practitioner so she could legally do all of the official medical stuff/write my pill script, but was able to talk about all the baby making. Which she basically said just go for it when you’re ready so. But I was happy to have the opportunity.

lemongrass lemongrass April 23, 2014, 11:14 am

All midwives here are like that. I don’t know about aftercare where you are but that was truly the best part of having a midwife to me. She treats us for 6 week after the birth and does home visits almost everyday for the first 10 days so you don’t have to leave the house. She did everything from making sure breastfeeding was going well to getting our swing safely set up, teaching me how to wrap and she had a ton of amazing tips for dealing with a newborn.

GatorGirl GatorGirl April 23, 2014, 11:27 am

This place does the 6 week after care too. I’m not sure if it’s in home or office, but the office/birth center is only like 2 miles from me. I’m really excited about the option, but worry we might be moving before we’re ready for baby making.

CatsMeow CatsMeow April 23, 2014, 11:27 am

I’m still trying to decide between being a midwife versus a women’s health nurse practitioner. I kinda figure if I want to do women’s health, I might as well be able to deliver babies so I can offer the full gamut of services. However, I don’t necessarily want to focus JUST on babies and pregnancies, which I feel like midwives do. I want to do well woman check ups and offer reproductive health services to women across the lifespan, whereas being a midwife most of my clientele would be women who are or want to be pregnant.
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Sorry to threadjack, but I was just having this convo with my OB clinical instructor yesterday. She is a women’s health nurse practitioner and kind of let me in on some of the differences that I hadn’t necessarily considered, and now I’m all confused!
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In other news, I saw a C section yesterday and it was AWESOME. I also played with the placenta.

GatorGirl GatorGirl April 23, 2014, 11:36 am

women’s health NP gets my vote!! The one I saw works both at the birth center and a regs OBGYN, so she gets to be all midwifey and do the regular well woman stuff.

CatsMeow CatsMeow April 23, 2014, 11:48 am

Yeah, a WHNP could do pretty much everything except actually deliver the baby, I guess. Midwives CAN do it all, but mostly focus on pregnancies. I guess I’ll just spend more time in labor and delivery and make a decision based on how much I like it.

GatorGirl GatorGirl April 23, 2014, 11:50 am

I’m sure it depends on your state a lot too. It’s super exciting though. I want to throw caution to the wind and do it too.

avatar bethany April 23, 2014, 11:51 am

I’ve always seen NPs at Planned Parenthood and liked them sooo much more than any full blown OBGYN I’ve gone to. I feel like you’d be really good at being an NP, and young women, especially might be able to feel more at ease with someone like you.

CatsMeow CatsMeow April 23, 2014, 12:03 pm

Yeah, @ Bethany, I saw an NP as my GYN when I lived in Vegas and she was by far the best. I’ve heard a lot of women say that they prefer NPs to MDs in that situation. (And yeah, I think I’d be pretty good at it too, if I don’t say so myself).

avatar bethany April 23, 2014, 10:06 am

I’m going to try to be nice here… LW, I’m having a really hard time understanding why you are in this relationship, and why you would even for a second consider having a child with this person. His “interests” here don’t even matter. This guy cheated on you (with his COUSIN!!), he lies to you, he doesn’t seem to care about your feelings or respect you at all. What the fuck? Seriously. Why would you want to have a child with a person like that? Why are your standards for acceptable behavior so low? This is not a rhetorical question. Spend some time and seriously think about why this is all acceptable behavior to you, because it really isn’t.
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You need to leave this man. Focus on yourself and your child and gain a little self respect.

theattack theattack April 23, 2014, 10:34 am

LW, I think the other commenters are going to thoroughly cover where you went wrong here, so I’m going to focus on what to do from here. If you have a Planned Parenthood close by, go talk to someone there for some open-minded guidance. Ask them for a therapist referral. Ask them about your options for this baby: abortion, adoption, resources to help you raise it on your own if you need help, etc. Go to the therapist immediately and try to figure out what to do about your pregnancy. Continue going to the therapist and talking about your relationship, your relationship history, and your individual self-esteem. PLEASE do this.

avatar Amanda April 23, 2014, 4:24 pm

WTAS