Just caught up on this thread, and wow! Add me to the “this isn’t assault” side.
Putting that aside, though, LW, if you are feeling this distraught over what happened, I’d urge you to seek the help of a professional, like a school counselor or therapist. They’ll be able to help you cope and teach you how to disengage when you’re in situations you’d rather not be in. I also hope you’ll use it as an opportunity to address your underlying racism, because yikes! Even the edited down version made me cringe.