Thank you all for the advice and support. It means a lot that I can reach out somewhere.
We talked and even though I started the conversation with anger and personal hurt, he was so depressed and hurt that I couldn’t help but want to hug him. He told me how sad and angry he was I couldn’t understand him how he wanted me to, how he is horrible and fails at relationships and how he doesn’t know what to do for himself alone let alone for others. He was also hurt for me reaching out wanting more, taking more. And told me to go find someone else.
He asked me what I see in him. I reminded him what I see and told him that if I see that, it means it’s there and that it is probably because of all the pain he is in that he doesn’t see something good about himself. I told him about his worth and his rare traits.
If I was any closer to leaving, now I absolutely can’t.