This cycle is going to continue to repeat, and every time it repeats it’s going to get a little bit worse.
He’ll become distant.
You’ll blame yourself.
You’ll try to get in his good graces again to get his approval because it’s the only thing that makes you feel worthy.
He’ll do something abusive.
He’ll apologize and make you feel bad for being mad at him.
Your relationship today is the best it will ever be. If that doesn’t terrify you, I don’t know what will.