You said you were in a not committed relationship, and then you broke up.
And now you say you want a committed relationship? Which is it?
She did nothing wrong. You were broken up!
At least she’s honest with you. Would you be, if the shoes were on the other feet? Would you be real with her?
You were bragging that you were not committed earlier and now you’re all sad about it.
You seem really immature. If you want to be with her do not ever bring that up as cheating and stop this childishness. And if you want a commitment with her, be honest and upfront. You’re older than me and I thought you were like, young twenties with this foolishness.
If you will never look at her the same, move on and don’t wait a round and guilt trip her. Life is too short.