I’m so sorry MJ. Sending you love. I just heard from my friend (mid 30s) that his mom who has cancer is being transferred from the hospital to palliative.
Congrats on the wedding @golfergal!!
In terms of books, I read Our Missing Hearts by Celeste Ng. I haven’t read her earlier books like Little Fires Everywhere. I didn’t love it so I wouldn’t recommend it necessarily, so not helpful haha.
I grew up thinking I would like a family but never felt “motherly”. I figured the feeling would just come. My husband and I said we would wait a year after the wedding before starting to try. My husband does want kids and we did talk about it before getting married. A few months ago I did kind of freak out of the reality of it all but worked through it. I think it was worry about the unknown. I also went off BC and weaned off some medication so that’s kind of been up and down.
Partly at play is I am not happy at work and while it took me more time than I should have I realize I don’t see my future where I am. However I also don’t exactly know where to go. I have some idea but I don’t know if that’s actually a good fit. We decided that I would take the next couple months or the summer to figure out what I want in a job before starting to try. So there is some pressure about fertility being in my mid 30s but we will take it as it comes.
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