Got it! I hope you are able to find a therapist in your price range since it does sound like your insecurities aren’t really being managed in a way that allow you to live the life you want.
FWIW, at least some of what you are experiencing seems pretty normal to me. Like, I’ve made great friends through work before, but have found that many of those friendships naturally tapered off when someone goes to a new company. And as I get older, friends are simply less available because they’re settling down, maybe starting families, careers take up more time or maybe they’re moving for their job. It’s hard!
It sounds like you’re doing a lot of things right. But the thing about taking classes or going to Meet Ups is that sometimes you have to go a lot to make more than casual friends, or to find that person that you feel is some kind of soul friend or whatever.
Keep doing what you’re doing, and work on quieting that voice in your head. If it’s too overwhelming to open up to everyone in your family, you can also just confide in a couple. I can understand why you’d think it’s embarrassing, but it’s not. A lot of adults are lonely and wish they had stronger friendships.
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