Reply To: My friends told me that I kissed a guy, but I don’t remember anything.

You are ok. To me this sounds more like you need to get treatment for anxiety or some other underlying condition, as opposed to having a problem tangibly with what happened that night. I think you should talk to a therapist about this and work on strategies to stop beating yourself up about something that happened 2 years ago and to get your anxiety controlled.

You were inexperienced and drank too much and did something you wouldn’t have done sober. You blacked out. Your drink wasn’t spiked. You just didn’t know your limits and drank to excess and blacked out and did something you didn’t realize you did. I had similar experiences when young. You need to just use it as a learning experience about your tolerance and move on and not drink like that again.

So you made out with a stranger. Ok. Were you in danger? Potentially, yes, you could have been raped, but it sounds like your friends were keeping a close eye on you and that didn’t happen. Deal with the “what if” feeling by understanding that you are in control of your drinking and you will not get like that again. Definitely do practice awareness and safety with your beverages, because yes, there’s a real threat someone could put something in your drink. But just educate yourself on how to be safe, and make it a habit to moderate your drinking and be aware of your surroundings.

This in itself is not a big deal, your mind is blowing it up for some reason and I think you need a little help.