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Thank you so much for your support. Sorry for making the story a little confusing. To give a context, I was in a relationship for 4 years. He was physically abusive and I was under 18. I was intoxicated and he made sure that I was under the influence of alcohol, so that it was okay for him to do it. As of that day, the ex (hes someone else)I made out with was from college. My first toxic ex made sure I broke up with him.
During the farewell, I was in no contact with the abusive ex, and that’s why I lost control. I’m safe now guys. I hope this cleared the confusion.
I cried a lot today and allowed myself to feel. Maybe I’m having those intrusive thoughts because I didn’t want that to happen to me again?
I have my next therapy this Saturday, and I hope it works out well. It’s 21st August, and the party happened today. 2 years ago.
Sigh. I’m proud of myself and of how far I’ve come. I’m never drinking over the limit. I lookout for my friends as well. I hope I’ll survive this.