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Thank you so much for your kind words Copa. Long story short, because of the abuse in the past by my ex, I think I’m worried about the same about the drunk make out session. It’s just my intrusive thoughts.
I let it happen in the past. And this time, I felt I wasn’t standing up for myself. I didn’t want to just let go and move past it.
But somehow, I have to convince my mind that it wasn’t an assault and I was safe. And that I had friends looking out for me, even if they judged me a little.
I’m in a much better place now – but one thing is I’m not able to concentrate on my day to day activities. I have been in control all my life, and given a situation like this, I have no control over. I’m glad it’s in the past and I get to look ahead. I’m turning 23 in less than two weeks, and I don’t want to let myself down. I’m looking forward to therapy and hope it helps. ❤️❤️