Over the past few years, I’ve spent time thinking about the lack of accountability of men and how women are the ones who end up absorbing their bad behavior. It’s come up for me in therapy on and off. And I sometimes think about the times I’ve called out bad behavior before (though not SA/#MeToo behavior) only to be dismissed and/or called cRaZy. And I think about how the bar is in hell because mediocre men benefit from the abuses of the truly shitty ones.
I haven’t followed the Danny Masterson case closely, but I was surprised to see he got 30 years… rapists don’t often get convicted and then they do, there usually isn’t much punishment (see also: Brock Turner).
Anyway, I’m sorry you’re triggered, but I do hope there is value and healing in revisiting the past (hopefully with your therapist).