Okay, I will leave the counselor subject alone after this but she can’t and will never tell me what to do. Her words. However, she will help me see things more clearly, which she has. I have been honest with her because why else would I see a counselor if I’m not going to be honest.
I can’t say I truly believe that they’re not close and haven’t been close for 7 years. That does seem like a stretch and yes, something that men with an agenda say. The blanket thing was not something planned. We were sitting on his couch and there has a blanket which he used to cover my legs partially. I definitely thought that was weird. There were people around that could possibly see that so that was a red flag for me but I didn’t speak up for myself. Moving someone’s hands isn’t enough and apparently telling them no isn’t enough either. They keep pushing so what I got from this is that I have to be firm and let people go if they don’t comply with my boundaries. I have been trying to meet more women (as friends) lately. I don’t have any other guy friends for a reason and I think I should stick with that. I probably put up with that behavior because I was lonely and felt like I had no one else to “rely on”. But I know that I shouldn’t have to put up with that kind of behavior and anyone who acts that way isn’t meant to be in my life and shouldn’t be in it.