Reply To: In despair

You’re sad because when he leaves, you don’t know if he’ll be back. He goes, he comes back, he goes again. He might not come back this time. That’s why you’re sad.

This relationship is very unhealthy, both in you wanting to be with someone who only wants to be friends and in that he never wants to be alone with you if he’s in a relationship. Allow yourself a moment to grieve and then move on.