My question is about what I perceive to be the red flags. I’m not sure Carl has sufficient boundaries around his ex-wife. They’ve been apart a shorter time than I have from my ex. They have teenage boys together that they split 50/50. I’m sharing parenting as well, so I get the need to be in contact with your ex, but I don’t think he’s as boundaried as I’d like.
Here’s what’s bothering me: During his ex’s custody periods, he picks them up from school when she can’t. He takes them to her house (he has keys), cooks for them, and waits for her to come home. On days when she’s able to pick them up, he’s often there fixing one thing or another. Last week he was there for a few hours fixing her computer printer. He invited her over to paint their rental unit, and then he seemed surprised when their old dynamic (and disagreements) came up. She has the keys to his house (where they lived for 19 years), and when she was over last week, he felt the need to remove all the things he’d bought for me to use when I was there. When I was staying over at his house last week, I made some offhand comment and, the next thing I knew, he opened a bedroom drawer where his ex *still* has her underwear, etc. His explanation was that she keeps things everywhere and one day she’ll come get them.
Because my own marriage was abusive, my boundaries are much firmer and I rarely see or speak with my ex. I know my situation is at the other extreme, so I’m not sure how this works for people who broke up for other reasons.
I’m not jealous; I just don’t want this to be some kind of red flag I ignore at my peril. Until I can make a decision about this, I’m having trouble deciding if I want to commit to this otherwise seemingly good relationship.
I’d appreciate your advice. — On the Fence
I can’t speak to your fear of intimacy and fear of missing out — they may very well be contributing to your not being ready to commit to this man you’ve known a couple months, and it’s great that you’re working through some of these issues with a therapist. I CAN speak to the red flags you’ve listed and confirm for you that your concerns are, indeed, valid. No one who still has a drawer full of his ex-wife’s panties should be pressuring a new girlfriend to commit to him, exclusively, period. It’s not even so much about YOUR not being ready; he clearly isn’t ready. Not if he’s removing any sign of your existence before the ex comes over. Not when he clearly hasn’t sufficiently moved on from the unhealthy dynamic with his ex-wife that led to their split.
We all have our own level of comfort around partners’ post-relationship interactions with their exes, but this is more than your feeling uncomfortable that Carl cooks dinner for his kids while at his ex-wife’s house before she gets home (something that I suspect others might not have as big an issue with; he’s taking care of his kids, after all). It’s even more than your feeling uncomfortable with Carl spending hours fixing his ex’s printer (arguably still an effort that benefits his kids if they use the printer). It’s even more than your discomfort with Carl painting a rental unit with his ex that they own together (much less about the kids!). The fact that Carl hides evidence of you when the ex comes over suggests that he is not truly available to you in the way you would want a committed partner to be. And that’s ok! You’re not asking him to be a committed partner to you. HE is asking YOU to be a committed partner, and it’s perfectly valid for you to say, “I don’t think we’re ready for that step yet.”
If you tell Carl you don’t think you’re ready for exclusivity and he asks why: be honest. You, yourself, are still processing and figuring out your own availability, and you feel that there’s sufficient evidence that he’s doing the same (or should be doing the same, anyway). Tell him you really like him a lot and enjoy his company and you’d love to continue seeing him while you both navigate your still relatively new post-divorce worlds and how to co-parent with your exes. It’s just not the right time yet for you two to take the next step in your relationship and why do you have to? Why rush? Why not enjoy each other’s company and continue getting to know each other? If he has a problem with that and he continues pushing you, then add that to your list of red flags and call it a day. He *may* be someone who feels he can’t function without a committed partner and he may be rushing to replace his ex-wife with you, not necessarily because you two are so great together (though maybe you are), but because he’s desperate to get that role filled ASAP so he doesn’t have to figure out who he is if he isn’t someone’s significant other.
In short: tell him you don’t feel your relationship is ready for an exclusive commitment and if he can’t respect that and he continues to push you, take that as a sign you need to MOA.