June 2, 2020 at 1:09 pm #887472BittergaymarkGuest
The desert house rented on airbnb… meaning I left Saturday only to find LA in a state of emergency. No exaggeration.
Only, it’s not just LA…
What the hell is going on, America? The protests keep taking out places I know and like and patronize.
In MSP, an entire street I typically visit has been vandalized and looted with some businesses burned and completely destroyed. Horrific. But the destruction does not stop there. No. Instead, Minneapolis was only the beginning…
The Apple store I go to in LA? Looted a along with pretty much the entire upscale Grove outdoor shopping mall.
Fashion Square Mall in Scottsdale, Arizona? A place we always go to when visiting my parents… Looted and trashed.
Hotel Donaldson —- the iconic downtown Fargo, North Dakota bar I always hit for happy hour after an afternoon of shopping? Multiple giant windows smashed.
America is falling apart right before our eyes. And all this will ONLY help Trump get reelected. I remain horrified. And profoundly depressed. Fireworks constantly exploding all night near my apartment didn’t help. Nor did having curfews and being stuck inside.
The guests left Monday morning as planned, so I immediately fled back to the desert house and did some preliminary Covid19 cleaning for myself as I simply had to get the fuck out of Dodge.
More, I wanted to water the new Palo Verdes and the Ocotillos. One of which I was worried about as many of its roots busted off while planting. It then went into shock and lost its leaves as ocotillos do all the time anyway… but I was stressed and worried about it. Damn thing cost $90. It’s big. About six feet tall and really cool. Anyway, by saturday its thorny limbs were bare but still a lovely green. Anyway, upon my return yesterday I happily find it to be all leafed out again! So that made me feel better about things. Desert plants are resilient. Suddenly, I was feeling resilient, too
Until my friend called to tell me that her favorite leather boots were burning along with a really great mom and pop shoe repair shop I recommended to her in Van Nuys. And of course the owners are so damn nice. WTF? I feel like we in the end of times, lately. Sigh…June 2, 2020 at 1:14 pm #887474BittergaymarkGuest
And yes, I have very, very dark thoughts about Trump. That nobody has boldly risen up and simply and decisively solved that problems will be the single greatest failing of every generation presently alive at the moment. And all the living generations are really nothing but failings. No, seriously. I fucking hate everybody. But these looting millennials are the absolute worse. None best cross my path.June 2, 2020 at 5:04 pm #887518
My boss started out the weekly team (Zoom) meeting asking if everyone is ok, and then she got pretty teary. She’s not African American, but she’s a person of color who decided to become a US citizen years ago, not anticipating this kind of bullshit. She also has two early-20s sons who are angry af and went to the protests the other night and she was worried about them. She told us about how, right after 9/11 she was home alone with her two young kids and the guy from downstairs came up to yell at her for making noise and said disgusting horrible racist things to her. I just… I can’t. Last night I had this strong urge to go get in the middle of a protest and just get killed. I don’t want this anymore. This has ALWAYS been here and it always will be.June 2, 2020 at 7:49 pm #887529Part-time LurkerGuest
Kate, I Won’t even pretend to know what to say or how to help you right now. I hope that you’re just sort of screaming into the void to relieve some of your stress and anger. I’m genuinely so sorry that we’re all living in such a tumultuous, angry time.
On a positive note, there was a quiet, peaceful march here today. People gathered at the university across the street and then walked to City Hall. No violence, no police presence. It gave me hope.June 2, 2020 at 7:54 pm #887530Part-time LurkerGuest
Kate, I won’t even pretend to know what to say right now or how to help you. I hope that you’re just screaming into the void to help relieve some of the stress and anger. I’m so genuinely sorry that we are all living through such a frightening and tumultuous time.
On a somewhat positive note, there was a quiet, peaceful march here today. People gathered at the university across the street and walked about a mile to City Hall. No violence. No police presence. It gave me hope.June 2, 2020 at 8:05 pm #887534
No, I really felt like that. Feel like that.
Everyone please just vote. It won’t make this cancer go away, but it will push it down and make it less deadly.June 2, 2020 at 9:32 pm #887537ktfranParticipant
Yes vote. But not only to get Trump out. We desperately need to take control of the Senate. McConnell is the true cancer to our democracy.
State are local elections are equally as important.June 3, 2020 at 9:35 am #887605MaterialsGirlParticipant
small bright spot: the douche in Iowa was voted out.June 3, 2020 at 10:30 am #887611CopaParticipant
So we did Starved Rock yesterday and it was very hot but a great day trip, SO nice to have a break from the city and to disconnect a bit. It didn’t feel crowded at all. We did a few trails, then had a couple beers on the patio of the lodge. I’ve only had take-out twice since our SAH order went into effect, so grabbing a bite and a drink on a patio felt like such a luxury (and so NORMAL!). I feel very refreshed.
ETA: There was a group of four at another patio table struggling to take a selfie. I offered to take a picture for them, saying I had disinfecting wipes on me they could use to wipe their phone down after I touched it, or that I could even take a picture from my phone and send it to them. They declined my offer, but we chatted with them for a pretty good while and it felt kind obvious we’ve all been a bit starved of social contact. Even that part of the day felt really nice. People!
June 3, 2020 at 10:37 am #887614
- This reply was modified 3 months, 3 weeks ago by Copa.
THIS is what I’m saying.
A lot of people on this site 4 years ago were lecturing about how these Trump voters voted out of economic insecurity. Not racism! Not misogyny! Certainly not fascism or Nazism! They just want to have secure jobs. We should make an effort to relate to them and understand them, as HRC should have done. Do you still believe that?
Please at least skim this article to understand where this is going.June 3, 2020 at 11:05 am #887619BittergaymarkGuest
Kate: I so, so get it. Honestly? I now wish I’d simply never lived to see any of this. And avoiding it all would have been so easy…
Why was I so hellbent on using condoms in the 90s? What a misguided fool I was.
NEWSFLASH: I have lost faith and suspect/hope to be dead via some cleverly disguised tragic accident by year’s end.
Trust me. It’ll be for the best. I’ve stayed far too long at this incredibly dreary party. There’s a reason midlife suicides are on the rise in all demographics. They are based on pretty sound logic.
At any rate, don’t panic anyone. This will take some serious planning if I am to pull it off. My only real shot at finally succeeding at something.June 3, 2020 at 11:20 am #887622BittergaymarkGuest
PS to Kate: That article nails a great many things. Thanks for posting it.
I definitely believe that anybody who voted for Trump was a racist. Worse, they will always be racist. It’s a bleak viewpoint, but yeah… I don’t see things ever getting better. I just don’t. Not any more.