That would be great. But I literally have no one I can call on the phone. I’m too down on myself to do video chat or online dr appointments. All they want us to put me on meds tgat will stop any sex drive I have (the only reason left to live) and make me gain weight. So I do t think that the answer either. No pharmaceutical meds.

Longtime depression sufferer here. This sounds very familiar to me

Serious question – do you actually have no one to talk, or are you convincing yourself that no one actually wants to talk to you because you just talk about depressing things? Or are you feeling like you don’t have the energy to handle talking to actual friends?

If either of these is the case, I find it helpful to remind myself that this is a construction of depression-brain and is in fact a total illusion. My friends DO like me, even if I can’t understand why. I’m willing to be $63 that your friends like you too.

If you really just want to talk to someone, sometimes I use BlahTherapy.com which will pair generally pair you with an untrained annonnymous stranger who is willing to listen to your problems. You basically sign up as a Listener or a Venter. It does the trick if I’m feeling frustrated but don’t want to bring it up with friends. Mileage may vary with it, but it’s *someone* to talk to. I’ve had some really interesting conversations on there and talked to some weirdoes, so you never know what you’re gonna get.

Otherwise, @FYI is right. Therapy, therapy, therapy. Find a doctor who doesn’t jump right to psych meds. It’s hard work but having the right therapist makes all the difference in the world.