I have recently broken up with by ex who decided he didn’t want to be with no more. Throughout my relationship I believed I suffered emotional abuse. It was always me putting in the effort and nothing I did was good enough. When we broke up I was devastated. It was like someone cut off my oxygen and I know this is because I’m trauma bonded to him. He blocked me and said it was easier for both of us. I then messaged him on email and asked him why he was being so hurtful and I ask to speak to him. He said we can meet up. I met with him and we ended up sleeping together after that he immediately told me it was a bad idea and that he wants to meet other people. It was awful and I left. Then when I go home he unblocked me and said he is sorry he has had to do this and he hopes I’m ok. He then got annoyed I didn’t respond to him. I then messaged him telling him I’m leaving and I will now move on with my life but when I did that he started to say to me he will never forgot the great times and the reason he he unblocked me is because he knows I like to talk to him. Then the next day he says to me why are you talking to me? I don’t love you no more. He has made my mind a complete mess and I know what I am doing by even speaking to him is wrong but I have this compulsive Desire to contact and when I do and he is horrible I break even more. I just don’t know how to end this torturous cycle. I feel like I’m a mess and mentally dependent on this monster but I can’t help but think about it and speak to him. How do I stop this?