There is someone (call him A) at work who likes me but I don’t have the same feeling for A because I like someone else (call him B). B knows A likes me but B doesn’t know that I like B. I secretly have a crush on B way before B even knew I exist and way before I met A. Whenever I see B walking by himself, my eyes always following him from a far distant and my lips slowly smile and my heart feels happy for a few short seconds. And I look away as B walking close because I didn’t want him to know. OMG, I’m too old to be infatuated with B lol. I feel a little bit sad when I see B is with another females because they are potentially becoming his girlfriend. I do not think B feels the same for me. B doesn’t say Hi to me when he sees me around at work. I’m invisible to him. I feel shy and nervous around B but try to be normal but I think I failed because B could tell I was shy :-P. The biggest problem is I couldn’t tell if B is 3 years older than me or 12 years younger than me. B grows beard so I couldn’t really tell lol. Aside from that, I think B is having a trust issue from his last relationship and I don’t know how long ago they broke up, I didn’t want to pry. I also have trust issue with humans but I couldn’t be helped for infatuated with B lol. Hopefully this infatuate/crush would go away quickly for me. Broken heart hurts but secretly infatuate of someone is a mixture of lonely + happy + sad + hurt feelings.

It’s amazing how a stranger can accidentally help another stranger with their true kind words and true care while a loved ones can nearly kill you with their sharpened tongues and actions and uncaring.

I feel there is no chance for me and B due to many reasons. So I truly hope and wish B would meet a partner who truly deserve him and treat him well. If B is happy then I’m happy. That’s good enough for me.