TGIF! My post-holiday seasonal depression is in full swing and it was a struggle getting through this week. I feel obnoxious saying that since my life is pretty easy, relatively speaking. I don’t have a high-stress job, I’m not caring for anyone sick or injured (nor am I sick or injured myself), I only have one child to care for and — knock on wood — he’s a good kid (though he NEVER — and I mean, never — stops moving unless he’s deep in sleep, which isn’t as often as I’d like), and I even have part-time help caring for him during the week when Drew’s at work. So I feel like I haven’t earned the “luxury” of being depressed, but it’s January and like clockwork so it goes.
I’ve been sad, angry, exhausted, and loads of fun to be around (just ask Drew). But rather than let this continue indefinitely or until Spring graces us with its presence, I’ve made a few doctors’ appointments, I’m making a point of getting fresh air and exercise every day, I’m getting together with friends, and I’m trying my best to tackle what ails me. I should probably order some more “happy lightbulbs,” as I call them — you know those ones that are supposed to mimic sunlight but are a far cry from a walk on the beach in June?
Anyway, I’m mentioning all this so any of you who are also dealing with the blues know you aren’t alone. And though I hope I haven’t seemed too obviously out-of-sorts lately, if it does come through in my writing, now you know why. Hopefully I’ll be feeling better soon and will be inspired to write a little more eloquently (writer’s block is an unfortunate effect of the blues for me; I can’t tell you how many different essays I started and deleted this week).
On a different, but not entirely unrelated note, I know the site has had a few technical difficulties lately. Next week, this tech genius will be working on the site so that it will run much more smoothly with far fewer glitches. The work is currently scheduled for Tuesday and the site will go offline briefly Tuesday evening, so head’s up. I’ll pay for the work with ad revenue, but if you ever feel inclined to contribute to the fund, you’re more than welcome (and it’s always appreciated; at this point, I still break even after paying for site hosting, maintenance, and 10 hours of child care each week. I’m hoping for big riches in 2013!).
That’s all I’ve got. How ’bout you??