TGIF! What a crazy week this was, amiright? I blame the full moon.
I know I promised to write something this week about stay-at-home-motherhood and I did spend an hour or so trying to, but eventually I was all, “Eh, fuck it, I’m bored,” and I moved on to something else. I know you’re all heartbroken. But maybe I will be moved in the future to write some defense of the modern day SAHM or something — you know, something about how most of the SAHMs I know have side projects and careers they’ve put on hold and we are “more” than “just moms” (someone asked me a couple weeks ago if I was “just a mom,” and I think that’s what set me off in the first place, as if any woman is “just” any one role in life) but this week I couldn’t really find a fuck to give. Wow, two fucks — well, three now — in one paragraph. I guess it has been quite a week.
Speaking of the whole “careers on hold” thing, this week I had an opportunity to imagine going back to work full-time (basically, there was a job opening I heard about that sounded up my alley and then someone in a hiring position reached out to me about the very same job and I wondered if it was a sign or something). There are times I really miss working outside the home and all that entails — Being away from children! Getting dressed in something other than cut-offs and a t-shirt! Feeling validated about work well-done! Earning a paycheck!! — but I thought about it and I couldn’t imagine being away from Jackson all day, every day. Of course, I know plenty of people (including my own husband) who do it — who work full-time jobs and then come home and start the “second shift” and many of them couldn’t imagine it any other way (and many people don’t have a choice, which I definitely appreciate). And the kids of parents who both work full-time don’t seem any less happy or cared-for or well-rounded to me, so I don’t say this from a place of judgment at all, but I just know that I, personally, couldn’t find the energy to give a full-time job AND parenthood all the focus I would need to do them both well. Plus, if I took a full-time job right now, that would definitely be the end of DW. I couldn’t work full-time, be a mom and wife, AND keep up this site in anyway close to the capacity I do now. So, that’s that. I will keep on trucking on and doing my thing and hope that by keeping a foot in the working world, I can still have a long-term career of sorts.
Anyway, I’m babbling. I guess I did have more to say about motherhood, etc. And I will probably re-visit this topic again some time. But for now, let’s talk weekend plans. On my agenda: mojitos, a jog or two in the park, “Orange is the New Black,” maybe a picnic, some naps, bubbles. And you?