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Kate, she literally told me “I was never looking for a relationship, because im free and do what i want. And i won’t be in next next month, two, or three months.”
Guys are generally bad at taking signals and hints. So when she followed up with the part about that guy, it seemed like a very, very, very logical answer, really. Tell me you’re not looking for anything serious for months to come, but you are seeing another dude, then i will say, tell him the same thing then, so he knows what not to expect? :/And please don’t get me wrong, i appreciate all your comments on here. There’s just more going on to me than just ‘this’ situation. It’s a very deep problem to me that i have had many times before. But before it was easier to deal with, because it mostly ended in drama, so i could simply be frustrated and angry with them. I’m in no way skilled in handling these things, so i may have said the wrong things and missed out on saying the good things. If only i would know what those things are, preferrably from someone whose a bit open about it. And won’t you agree that she saying we would still go do things, i could still sleep over, that she wants to come to my place and visit my hometown does not help in any way? That’s not even trying to be clear? After the ‘break-up’ she invited me to a party at her uni and offered me to sleep over? I couldn’t make it that day, but it sure as hell is confusing!
But yeah, you’re probably right saying i should leave it, like 90% of you are saying here 🙂
This is why i came here, really.So yeah, i’m fully aware of the fact that i’m not able to handle a situation like this, which is why im on here. I know i got rejected and i don’t expect anything of her. My guess is i showed too much interest, which scared her away. I know, because ive been on the other side as well. Only because it’s the so manieth time, it’s eating me.
Kate, that’s the thing. I have a lot of unprocessed childhood trauma’s, lots of self confidence issues. Thinking about why it is like that simply is not good for my mental well being. I have been held in the grey zone before by another girl and litterally had a depression follow up. That’s what makes it more difficult for me when she describes me like a gift from god to her, and that it’s simply her not looking for a (any) relationship. Also since i know she has contact with another guy. I said to her: then tell him you’re not looking for anything serious either then, her response made it clear she wasn’t being truthful with what she said before. I agree that asking for honesty comes over as pushy, which is why i’m so conflicted in doing it. I just want to hear it clear, straight. That way i know what about me made her miss the spark, because that is how i improve myself. That is the way i have always improved myself, by feedback. Maybe i don’t have the strength to say “fuck it” and grow stronger out of it by myself. While i know i’m a catch to girls, there is something missing each and every time, i even lost count. Now that makes you think. This situation is more complicated than a frustrated boy not able to handle rejection.
Hey Kate,
Worth noting is the interest WAS there. Which is exactly why i feel a bit frustrated with the way she’s suddenly lost interest entirely. There was something in the way each time. No condom, no pill/on period, food poisoning (twice!), too drunk to get it done,… “Don’t worry about it, next time we’ll do it”. It’s not that she had no interest, it’s that she lost it, or rather that i lost her interest. And i was actually okay with not having it, i am not pushy at all. She initiated it most times. My thoughts about this are consuming me, yet i still am conflicted in asking for more clarification. She’s good-hearted, and will probably understand. In any case, it would make the situation so that it’d either improve or stop completely.
Hey Anita,
Thanks for the useful reply!
Since i posted this, ive been thinking a lot on how to handle this. What you said is actually the most logical and honest thing to do, considering how i myself feel about this. I can only be myself and really don’t like to play games, so that’s what I will do. Problem is, it won’t be easy to meet up again, because of various reasons other than our situation. So i’m again a bit conflicted in wether i should just give her a call or not. Maybe that won’t have the same effect as talking face to face.Assuming things is probably the worst part in a situation like this. I know clarity will calm my thoughts and make it easier to move on.
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