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Well…yesterday I started spiking a fever. all of my joints ache. I’m tired and not hungry. minor cough, but mostly feel like I have to clear my throat, but nothing seems to help. just drinking broth today. I have test for covid on Saturday.
Oddly, I was clumsier than normal the day before fever. I am hoping this is a sign on something else than coronavirus. I’m more likely to have a rough ride if its covid, because I’m prediabetic and immunocompromised. And I guess LA county is opening up, which is just crazy to me.
@LisforLeslie – THANK YOU. I’ve ordered some and hopefully they help. I honestly dont know why that sent me over the edge this morning. Been holding up pretty well with the stress and all, but the eyebrows were apparently just too much.
So I realize this is incredibly petty. But I think my brain needs to focus on something not dire currently.
Was in a zoom meeting and realized that while I managed to mask the hair needs a cut and color pretty well, the eyebrows are defeating me. They grow strangely low, onto my eyelids. Problem is I’m legally blind without my glasses, so the thought of taking a sharp object or a wax strip to them is seriously intimidating. I tried to tweezer them but without my glasses I can’t see well enough to grab the hairs.
So this morning I stood in the bathroom kinda laughing and crying and wondering why my eyebrows have suddenly become so important to my mental health.
@Bittergaymark – I’ve been daydreaming about the time I will get to airbnb at the place you are designing. One thing you’re very good at – helping build and foster dreams. It’s helped me get through the craziness myself.
I’m essential and working in the office a few days a week. I’ve been surprised by the increase in freeway traffic recently. A lot more people are on the road during my commute time than when this began. I’ve also seen more people without masks walking their dogs through my neighborhood and stuff. At least most try to stay away from each other.
There was a protest here recently…but it was attended by a whole two people. One was dressed like an escapee from a Hamilton production. Pretty funny. https://easyreadernews.com/beach-closure-protest-along-redondo-beach-esplanade-cant-compete-with-setting-sun/
My BF (Will be 2 years in June) is quarantining at his Mom’s house, because she lives alone and is in frail health. A decision I support wholeheartedly. However…she lives almost literally on the other side of the world. The time difference is 10 hours. So right now we’ve got no idea when he can come back to the US and connectivity is hard. We’re muddling through it though. What works for us is both sync and async communications – we make netflix party dates, we try to catch up via text at least once a day, even just to say hi. We email. What’s hard is he’s very self conscious on the phone due to his accent and is struggles to do voice/video calls. It feels uncomfortable for him but vital for me. We just did our first this week actually. For us what we’ve learned is communication is very very key. We talk about stuff a heck of a lot more and look for solutions from both of us.
Given how long this may last, I dont know what the future will hold. But for now we’re making it work and I dont believe our relationship is suffering for the seperation.
So like everyone else I have been so so stressed. I’m one of the lucky ones – still employed and in a stable job, but immunocompromised and fearful every time I have to leave the house to go to work. I also have diagnosed C-PTSD from a crap childhood. (I emphasize diagnosed because unfortunately PTSD has become a word that’s thrown around all too frequently.) Having my mouth, nose covered is very triggering for me. I have to keep myself grounded because I’m all the kids have.
I’m taking it one day at a time and trying to build in little pockets for myself. Breathing space I guess. I took up an old hobby and started writing again. Was something I did for many years as a coping mechanism before life changed. For me this is a way of just getting balance back. Been so very long that I can use help though. So what I came here today to see was if anyone has used a freelance developmental editor available via something like reedsy. I know there are a lot of them out there but I’d rather collaborate with someone in or a friend of my online communities if that makes sense? I don’t expect to actually publish anything anywhere. I just expect to look at the story when I’m done and know its as good as I can get it.
Anyone have any suggestions for editors out of work before I go querying randoms for quotes, I’d love to hear it.
Helen – I am so so glad you are starting to get a little better.
BGM – I also would love to hear the Clemintine story. I’m not allowed to have pets in my place and I miss it.
So my boyfriend – who is sheltering in another country right now because he was visiting his mom who lives alone there when everything closed – managed to send me a care package. He sent me bone broth, some of the protein shakes I am used to, toilet paper and some coffee pods for the office machine. (I’m an essential employee in a defense business; I have no choice but to go to the office. We got a letter from DOD mandating that we stay open as long as possible.)
Oh, he also sent some of the vitamins that I haven’t been able to find. (There’s only ONE brand I’ve found that I can tolerate.) I feel so damn cared for. I don’t cry much, but I cried after opening that package. It was such an unexpected lift to my day. I figure if I’m careful I can get at least 2/3 of the protein goal the nutritionist gave me after surgery for the next two weeks.
@MaterialsGirl – I had tried a protein powder right after surgery and it had really bad side effects. Not that one though. I’ll give it a go. Thanks!
So a few years ago I had some tumors and had to have a gastrectomy. I no longer absorb nutrition well. One thing I struggle with is getting enough protein. Before this I had been drinking protein shakes that are very low in sugar. I have to limit sugar/some carbs because it now causes really bad side effects. Unfortunately it seems like the pandemic caused people to hoard the things because I’m having a lot of trouble finding them. Anyone have any good protein rich recipes? I’m getting tireder and more worn out by the day.
As far as silliness goes my son announced yesterday that he wanted to watch something “that has CGI so bad its great” …so we watched Army of Darkness. We laughed ourselves silly.
@anonymousse I really hope you feel better. It sounds so hard to have to keep away from the kids. I hope they are old enough to understand why and are taking it with grace. Please rest and feel better soon I hope.
@allornone – You are getting through this. We’re here for you to listen, let you vent and hopefully get lots of desert calm from BGM. You can get through this. We’ll help best as we can.Today is my WFH day. I’ve been watching BGM’s desert posts and feeling envious of his peace. So yesterday I took out the old patio furniture that was stored in the garage and scrubbed it down. Today I’m working from the yard while the middle-schooler is blasting Rolling Stones (Beggar’s Banquet) and doing his math homework.
I’m grateful that I rented a house out here and I have a yard to escape into while I work. And that I was inspired to remember that I have space I can escape to and change things so I can take advantage of it. And mostly I’m glad the kid likes classic rock. My best friend is currently in close quarters with his 3 girls and says the kpop may take his sanity.
