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Well, I had to do some special work yesterday, that was urgent, and required me to go to a town that is 3 hours away. I stopped at some random restaurant to have lunch and when I left, there was a guy sitting there that I had met through Tinder. I totally recognized him and almost tripped and everything. I didn’t talk to him because I had to leave in a rush. This guy had talked to me for a couple of days on Tinder, then stopped. Then he followed me on Instagram and we talked a while there, liked a couple pictures and then stopped again. It was a bummer because the conversation was really nice and I really liked him. Yesterday, when I saw him I was so surprised (like what are the odds that I ran into him, so far away from when I usually am, at a restaurant I never go to, on a day that I wasn’t supposed to be there) so I had to talk to him, and I did. We talked for a while but then he stopped. I was like OMG, this is destiny, but I guess he wasn’t haha. Bummer.

@veritek I really liked WW. It’s not the best movie ever but it’s fun to watch with a girlfriend.

I would show up at some place where he is at with friends, not alone though. But that’s because I’m not seeing it as a date. I told him I wanted to make friends and he was ok with that. Maybe he says it’s ok because he is expecting more.
Any type of date makes me anxious. Even seeing people I already know, but maybe haven’t seen in a while or haven’t seen in a social environment. I grabbed coffee yesterday with a long time friend from work, I had never seen him outside of work and that made me anxious. Like what if I hate the way he behaves out? I don’t know, as you can see I am an overthinker. And I know it’s something I need to get over.

Well, sadness comes and goes, but I’m mostly happy and calm. Weekends are hard but I have tried to keep myself busy. Ex hasn’t stopped bugging me but I try my best to avoid him and I learned that I shouldn’t expect anything from him.

I downloaded Tinder again last Sunday and started talking to a guy that seems too good to be true. He already asked me out but I feel like we should talk some more before. He seems very eager to go out even when I told him that I actually joined Tinder to make friends, not to date or anything serious (and it says so on my profile) so, we’ll see what happens. At least the conversation has been nice.

@Veritek if you feel like that then it’s actually healthy to just delete the apps. I’ve wanted to delete Facebook too. But you’re strong, you are very strong. It actually takes strength to leave situations that may trigger you.

One thing that always helps for me and used to help me during my first awful breakup (and it’s going to sound awfully selfish but it helps), was to think that many many people have it way worse. This friend I was talking to told me about a friend of his whose fiance told her that he didn’t want to get married in the middle of the cake tasting, in front of everybody. They were actually getting married in June and she is the one who has had to face everyone since this guy just dropped off the face of the Earth. She is having a way worse time than I am. I felt really really sorry for her, her situation is awful, and then I thought wow, my situation is nowhere near that and here I am making it like it’s the end of the world.

And yeah, Veritek, I think it’s healthy to delete apps like Facebook but do think that social media only shows the best parts of relationships. During the first breakup I posted something on Facebook about feeling sad for that and a friend of mine who was married at the time and posted A LOT about babies and husband and seemed really happy and like a perfect family, told me that she wished she had never married. So, obviously people are going to show the good stuff about their lives. But what if they actually have it worst? I prefered at the moment to be going through a breakup than to be trapped in a marriage wanting to get out. I don’t know if this helps, I’m just rambling, but I’m actually trying to send you lots of good vibes.I hope you feel better soon.

@Copa, how’s eveything with the guy from Ok Cupid?

“I told him that he could go see his parents often, and that the rest of his worries about compatibility are absolutely normal to have but that it’s why you have to keep working at your relationship and develop interests together.”

That makes me so mad because it reminds me so much of my ex. It’s like you have to teach him how to behave in a relationship appropiately. You don’t have tot each anybody anything. This is like my ex, like with the music thing I kept saying to him that this could be solved with a conversation but he just kept saying no, we’re incompatible, and at the moment, I just couldn’t realise that he was just making excuses to end it, I felt like I had to teach him to talk and express his feeling so we could have a relationship.