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My brother is the director of the emergency department in MD. He has been warning me about this for 8 weeks so I did stock up well in advance. He says within 2 weeks we will be Italy. He dreads having to choose who will live & die. The older physicians are retiring early to avoid this & the exposure. I keep hoping he is wrong, but his timeline & predictions so far have been dead on. Needless to say, my anxiety levels have been through the roof this week.i started pushing my employer to set us all up to work from home if needed & finally this week they are working on it, but they don’t have enough laptops for everyone, nor cell phones. I’m willing to use my own but so far haven’t been successful in getting my personal laptop to connect. My daughter is coming home from college today & has been in TX on spring break so I’m worried about what she’s been exposed to & bringing home. It’s overwhelming. I’m cleaning like crazy (my form of self care ha ha) & don’t mind being at home where it feels “safe”. It’s just hard to sleep & eat, worrying about $ & the economy, good grief! If there is something to worry about, rest assured my brain will think of it all night long. It’s hard to put the anxiety down when I’m worried about all the people I love. I’m going to try some meditation apps this afternoon & do some writing to get it all out of my head & onto paper.

@Kare have fun, I am opting out of the obligatory swinger’s party this NYE. I’ve done it every NYE for the last 4 years & I need a break. I am planning on low key, something where I don’t have to get a new dress, be all fancy ( freeze to death cuz so much skin is showing)& get my nails done. I think my BF doesn’t really believe me, but I am not going. I have big-party burn out. Seeing Star Wars with my daughter sounds like the best option to me.