JD

@ale I was the same at 34, and quite fine with it and next thing I know I was married by the time my 36th birthday rolled around. Go figure. We didn’t move crazy fast as we had known each other a long time but I wouldn’t seriously date someone out of state as he moved during knowing him….but here I am in another state. Haha. Crazy how fast things can change. The only thing I didn’t love about being single then was waiting too long and missing a chance to have kids.

Is @Copa on her trip? I feel we haven’t seen her much but don’t remember when it was.

Must take sleeping pill tonight. My dog seems to think 12:30, 2:30, 3:30 are all time to go to the bathroom. I didn’t last night since I decided wine with dinner was priority and I didn’t feel good mixing the two.

Looks like snow coming, but luckily for the weekend. Trying to think of a fun date night for hubs and I think weekend. There’s an arcade place around here (adult one not Dave and Busters) which is a bar and arcade. They had one over the river but recently opened one closer. I think I may need to destroy him in Ski Ball and Pac Man. Seems like a fun idea.

Also need to figure out his anniversary gift. Hmmm……… I want to get him a new iWatch as he has the first generation and uses it a lot but we were trying to keep it cheaper with all the expenses right now and coming up. First year is paper right? Sooo…. Still blank 🙂 I wish men in general were easier to shop for. I am sure some are easier but I have yet to meet one….other than my uncle who pretty much never stops talking about an ice cream maker I bought him. haha.

My first drink, Amaretto was in a van. Maybe giving teenagers minivans isn’t a good idea. HahahHa.

I love driving stick still but fewer cars with it. I only like driving it for fun now though not as my daily driver. I can drive anything stick though so sometimes it was fun at our old shop to be able to go have fun in some crazy amazing cars that half the men could barely handle.

I meant similar weather is annual snowfall, which I didn’t clarify. Of course me getting a taste of my first Illinois winter, well we all know how the weather has been. Great way to break me back in. The amount of sweaters, coats and boots I’ve had to buy.

I just took a nap and it was glorious. I have slept terribly the past two nights and was so exhausted. Much needed. I also remembered that being off evil medication I can take something to sleep if I need now. Wish i would’ve remembered the last two nights. I do Trader Joe’s chewable melatonin or the Costco sleep aid. Those two don’t make me groggy. For some reason the other brand melatonin I’ve taken gives me insane dreams. Must remember to get my mom to send me some of the Tjs one I like since no stores here.

Although my nap included a dream of me filing my nails on the wing of a plane then not being able to get back in while mid air. No medication for that insane dream. Haha. So weird.

He wasn’t with me so he didn’t watch it. He was teasing me before I left because the news had just said the roads were fine but I was still being panicky. He felt awful once i told him.

Worth noting, my anxiety is through the roof right now due to my heart meds making me feel like im freaking dying, or about to all the time. He knows, but I haven’t really been telling him how I feel every moment, since just not thinking about it or talking about it helps me a bit. Went back to the first medication they gave me even though I cannot take it when pregnant, just so I can feel ok until we figure it out and I can get in with my Dr. The first one made me feel amazing. The best I have felt in the 5 years this crap has been going on. This last one, I don’t know what was going on but it was fine the first month then suddenly chest pain, dizzyness like crazy.
I ended up having a fun ambulance ride to the ER last Friday. Luckily everything is actually fine but that medicine is in the trash now. Luckily I was on a low enough dose that I didn’t have to dose down and could just stop and switch back to the first one. I am very glad I decided to try to figure out the right medication well BEFORE getting pregnant since dealing with this, while pregnant, with possible symptoms from that, would have been torture. My instinct on that was good even though the docs said “oh you can just switch once you are pregnant”. I will see him Friday and hopefully try something else. It’s difficult not to have anxiety when you are alone, driving, feeling like you are having a heart attack. My dad is an RN and reminds me that feeling like that causing you anxiety is a pretty reasonable response. Also, the best medics ever. I don’t think I have ever met, in any time in my life, nice, more compassionate or caring people. Last time I was in an ambulance after a bad car accident I was crying and in insane pain, terrified and the guy just sat there ignoring me and damn near rolling his eyes. Thanks dude.

He wasn’t being a dick at all. He was sarcastically giving me shit and once I told him what happened he felt bad and smooched me. I rarely drive and us paying for surgery takes importance over getting a new car just yet. We also want to wait to few months until his car is paid off so we still only have one car payment. His car is not good on the snow but when it is bad he can telework.

For whatever reason I’ve always preferred men. Stronger I guess. I did have one woman i went to who was fantastic but she moved away. Funny thing is the one time i did go to Massage Envy it was like the guy (pretty young) was trying too hard not to touch me wrong that it wasn’t as good. I could feel his hesitation if he was in feet of any “parts”. I don’t want to be felt up of course but I do want my thighs rubbed too.

The best guy period is in Big Bear. They have a location and do in house. We always call them when we stay up there. I recommend The Club are Big Bear, hands down, to stay. They even came in a near blizzard. He has a woman he brings for couples. He does some amazing thing where the pressure is exactly even in every inch of his hand. Heavenly. Their prices are typical for someone who comes to you. Not crazy. I never go up there without having them come out. I’d have to look back at my Yelp reviews to find the name but if anyone is ever up there and interested do ask. Also he hotel I mentioned. Best possible.

I don’t know where I’m booking for our anniversary yet. Of course son is supposed to be with his mom for spring break, which is during our anniversary, but she is once again shocked at the ticket prices, that are the same, every time, and she is shocked, every time. I suspect she won’t follow through. Just sucks because we planned to stay at a nice hotel for the night. I can’t book until she books hers. Her custody agreement says she has to do it 30 days in advance but of course she hasn’t. Ugh. I seriously cannot comprehend being surprised at the price of something that is the same price every damn time. She went off on me for him losing half his spring break (he had two weeks) due to weather. Because, I, the all powerful Janelle, control the weather. ??‍♀️