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Thank you guys, I appreciate the thoughts and prayers and so does he. He’s doing a lot of sleeping which is exactly what he needs. I’m doing a lot of ignoring my mother, which is what I need.

@Kare, reading “We did sort of make a sex tape last week.” made my day. How do you “sort of” make a sex tape? Is that like being “kinda pregnant”? So many questions.

And yes, no actively dating. Apps are deleted off the phone but not completely deleted so I can reactive them in a few weeks or so if I want.

Remember Army guy, my new years and ball date? He still texts every other day or so. We talk a lot about our dogs and crossfit, just friendly chit chat. He said he’d like to still get together for dinner this month if I’m up to it. And I think I am. Just not this week 🙂 We talked about maybe two weeks from now meeting up in the town halfway between us for a night at the riverboat casino. Neither of us are gamblers but we like people watching and they have an awesome restaurant. So we’ll see if that happens. Otherwise, yeah, no dating right now. It’s nice. I’m taking care of me. I’ve lost five pounds! And my house is looking great and I had a great photo shoot this weekend for my personal photo business. Other than dad being in the hospital, which bloooooows, life isn’t awful right now.

@mucha I completely understand your feelings. I hope you got indesign all figured out and got your apps done!

I had a great weekend with my friend and got my tattoo! And I finally got to flip a tire at crossfit (I’ve been waiting so long for that day lol) So all in all, excellent weekend! Didn’t look at a dating app even once!

I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to offend. Clearly I’m not secure with my decisions, so that’s why I’m choosing not to put them on the internet right now because I personally can’t handle the feedback/opinions/advice. Me, personally.

Like I said, I’m way too sensitive right now, so that’s why I’m stepping back. I didn’t mean to tell anyone what to write, so I’m sorry if it came out that way.

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I think I’m with you ktfran on the hyperbole. I’ve been accused of being a drama queen on here and yeah, I’ll take it. I don’t think I’m nearly as dramatic in real life, just that my creative writing degree takes hold sometimes and MUST WRITE THIS SO THEY UNDERSTAND and it get’s out of hand.

I know personally my ‘meltdowns” included crying quietly on Tinder Teacher’s shoulder the first time because I was just all of a sudden overwhelmed with house stuff and my birthday and really not wanting to go home and deal with it, etc. And the second meltdown was just more crying while packing my bag to leave because he made me feel like he wasn’t into it anymore and sort of kicking me out and my mom had been on my ass harassing me for the last few days so I cried. And I cried more while packing my shit into my car and cried while he was hugging me and telling me it was all gonna work out, because deep down inside I knew he was done and I was never gonna see him again. And that was disappointing and I felt like I had screwed it up and I was taking on the blame. So yeah, no screaming or crying hysterics, just leaky face and sadness.

Should it have happened in front of him? No. But it did. And I can’t take it back now so I can only learn from it.

The internet is a very easy place to misunderstand things. I do truly think JimmyJam, that you are trying to offer advice from a male perspective, and sometimes we (me) take it as an attack, and that’s something we (I) will work on. Perhaps your delivery is just a bit sharper than some of us are used to. But that’s you, and that’s okay.

We’re all just learning and some of us (me) take things more personally that we (I) should. Working on that.

Okay, thanks @Lianne, I appreciate the perspective 🙂