TheRascal

“Sometimes I can’t help it. Wouldn’t execpt u to understand.”

I’m sorry that you think some of us, including myself, can’t understand. What I know, though, is that many of us do understand because we have dealt with depression, too.

You can help it. You are the only person in control of your actions; you are the one who decides whether or not to lash out. You are the one who can decide how to react.

As I wrote before, please reread what Lyra, Convexed, and bostonpupgal had to say. They were kind, compassionate, and insightful in their comments.

Sarah B, I’ve steered mostly clear of this thread, but I hope that you listen to some of the recent postings. Especially this one from bostonpupgal:

“It’s important that you get your emotional health in order, including your depression, self esteem, decision making, and social skills. Once those things are in order the other things should come into place more easily. Honestly I’m not sure that trying to date right now is even a good idea considering what you’re describing: severe depression, hopelessness, difficulty with others, etc. not to mention this fixation on your boss. It may be that you need more therapy or a different kind in conjunction, you should definitely have a medical doctor involved as well and try some medications. It just seems clear that you need more help than you’re getting.”

Please look inward first for happiness. External relationships will suffer if you don’t first and foremost love yourself.

Agree with the other posters. It seems like you are inviting drama into your life. So if you REALLY want to not think about him? You could quit your job and try to find work somewhere else.