Trixy Minx

I started seeing someone at the end of my summer gig. We were friends the entire summer and hooked up at the end of season party. We didn’t discuss it AT ALL and he left a couple days later. I left not too long afterwards. He traveled to the Oregon Coast to do a 7 day hike on the Pacific Crest Trail with some friends from our village this summer. I traveled south to colorado until my van broke down. I stayed with my aunt while it was being fixed. He finally got done with the hike and started heading back to colorado for his winter job. On his way to his town he stopped in the area I was at to see me. Oh man. For being on the road for as long as he has he looked damn good. I just so happened to be applying for jobs in that town so I was dressed up. We ran some errands together and got food. I asked him if he wanted to get a hotel for the night. He said yes.
Some might say well of course he wanted to get laid but not this guy. This guy keeps every women at a very safe distance. I watched him interact with women throughout the summer and he was intentionally dense to any ladies hitting on him. I am pretty sure I was the only person he hooked up with. Which is a shame because he is a really great person.
We got the hotel and we made friends with our neighbors. They were impressed with the mountain bike, kayak, skis and other gear he had piled onto his car. They thought us a very cute couple. I watched him take in those words and I smiled as he was okay with others thinking us a couple.
We each took a six pack into the hot tub and talked about what we had been up to and plans for the winter. He already had housing and a job lined up. Me? I was winging my winter.
He kept his distance until I broke the tension. We both exposed our feelings and fears. We had a great night. He was supposed to leave early the next day but he kept procrastinating his time with me. Finally I had him drop me off at the library. He couldn’t say good bye. There was always something else he needed to talk about. So finally after standing in the entrance of the library for what seemed like forever. I said good bye by getting close, grabbing his shirt collar and kissed him and walked away.
We don’t talk much these days. I know I got too close to his heart where the bruising was still tender. I am lucky to have known someone like him. I like to think that one of these days we will be working the same summer or winter gig and we can pick back up. Though, that is only a fantasy.
I’ve been staying single these days. The summer is just around the corner and I have a feeling that no matter which location I pick I will meet someone that will blow me away. I pray I get the job in Maine but who knows?
Cheers!

Wendy has taught me that in order to attract the great love I want; I need to be worthy of it and not just to expect it cause i exist.
I <3 you wendy. You and this site with the community of people have made me a better person.