I didn’t hear about the assault(s) at ME. We are going to a local place but a ME just went in not to far from my house and I was thinking of checking them out. Maybe not now. Oh well.

A massage sounds so good right now. Spent the morning getting more tests on the heart. On the upside everything looks really good, all my labs everything. The downside is I clearly cannot take this medication and the I’m just about out of options I can take while pregnant. Was trying to get the medication settled before becoming pregnant. The only one that doesn’t make me feel awful I can’t take pregnant ugh. Back to the cardiologist.

For whatever reason I’ve always preferred men. Stronger I guess. I did have one woman i went to who was fantastic but she moved away. Funny thing is the one time i did go to Massage Envy it was like the guy (pretty young) was trying too hard not to touch me wrong that it wasn’t as good. I could feel his hesitation if he was in feet of any “parts”. I don’t want to be felt up of course but I do want my thighs rubbed too.

The best guy period is in Big Bear. They have a location and do in house. We always call them when we stay up there. I recommend The Club are Big Bear, hands down, to stay. They even came in a near blizzard. He has a woman he brings for couples. He does some amazing thing where the pressure is exactly even in every inch of his hand. Heavenly. Their prices are typical for someone who comes to you. Not crazy. I never go up there without having them come out. I’d have to look back at my Yelp reviews to find the name but if anyone is ever up there and interested do ask. Also he hotel I mentioned. Best possible.

I don’t know where I’m booking for our anniversary yet. Of course son is supposed to be with his mom for spring break, which is during our anniversary, but she is once again shocked at the ticket prices, that are the same, every time, and she is shocked, every time. I suspect she won’t follow through. Just sucks because we planned to stay at a nice hotel for the night. I can’t book until she books hers. Her custody agreement says she has to do it 30 days in advance but of course she hasn’t. Ugh. I seriously cannot comprehend being surprised at the price of something that is the same price every damn time. She went off on me for him losing half his spring break (he had two weeks) due to weather. Because, I, the all powerful Janelle, control the weather. ??‍♀️

I think you’re fine if you always have a woman. But the company itself is questionable… hundreds of women came forward and it sounds like ME knew about all these complaints and just aggressively covered it up.

Sooooo update (since the very beginnings of this relationship and the demise of my last one exist in this thread!) I got engaged! It was 2.5 weeks ago and I am so happy :). It just the time since getting engaged we have found and begun booking our venue, I found a wedding dress, and we are talking to three photographers this weekend. My fiance made it very clear he wanted to get married this year ASAP, so we are getting married Aug 24, 2019. He had been playing it relaly cool the last few months as he planned things, but my comments on thinking about freezing my eggs this year put things into perspective (I’m 34 and he is 32, and we want 2 kids). It’s crazy to think in 6 months I’ll be married and sometime next year I could be pregnant!

Though I am wildly happy, planning wedding fast is definitely not for those with anxiety disorders! I’ve popped a blood vessel in my eye twice and have had reccurring chest pain and racing thoughts. I feel like the whole thing opens me up to be judged, especially as I am among the very last of my friends to get married and people know we are financially very stable. I would be happy with a small shingig, but fiance wants to do the whole horse and pony show…which I am happy to do, but it’s still a lot. Just the thought of having everyone stare at me while I am emotional…aghhh. And what if I’m not a beautiful bride? What if people think my dress is tacky? It’s been a wild ride and I’m thankful I only have 6 months to stress about it 🙂

Congratulations! Pass a bunch of the horse and pony show over to him I say. No wedding is worth popped blood vessels and chest pain and whatever.