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    January 23, 2020 at 7:06 pm #873391

    @copa, honestly it has been so liberating exploring it. I have been cautious seeing as that community has received a bad rep in the past (understandably with certain people tainting the pool), but it has been fun. I am still pursuing counselling as a way to help myself grow and get through my own insecurities that came out in my last relationship. So over all, both have really helped me grow and learn more about me. Not getting into serious dating any time soon, not ready. But when I do I hope to have a more concrete idea as to what I need from a partner.

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    January 22, 2020 at 3:45 pm #873243

    Bit of a small vent. Been cruising around the hookup/dating apps to find people to explore my kinks and D/s lifestyle with (this is a new thing, finally taking the time to explore this area with experienced people, so far so good). I was chatting with someone and last week we had planned to meet but do to a bad snow storm our plans got cancelled. Let him know the same day my availability for next week (as he mentioned we should reschedule to then), and never got anything from him about his availability! I casually reached out to him on the Friday asking how his week was, and he mentioned saving some of our conversation for our drinks. Still didn’t get any availability from him that day, or on the weekend, or this week. He finally messaged me today and apologized for the long wait that I should message him over whatsapp and that he got drunk last night for his BD, and was scattered. Basically told him, thanks but no thanks, you never got back to me about meeting this week, and still haven’t told me your availability,I am not interested anymore. He responds by telling me that it is strange I interpreted his lack of communication the way I did and just said goodbye. Lord, are men this dense? I mean he is 31 for god sake, why would he not be understanding that leaving me hanging for a week with no communication of re scheduling be appropriate? Gah, makes me dread going back into dating in the near future.

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    January 2, 2020 at 10:07 pm #869545

    @veritek I am so sorry about your dog 🙁 Hope you are doing a bit better.

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    December 11, 2019 at 10:57 pm #865003

    @TheLadyE woo hoo! So nice to feel that way with a partner, keep it going and keep us updated on how things are going 🙂

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    November 22, 2019 at 4:58 pm #860962

    I think breaking the lease won’t be an issue, the landlord was pretty reasonable and seemed to be understanding of the situation my ex was in after the break up. So I am keeping my fingers crossed something positive will come of the lease break.

    I mean yes, we did jointly sign the lease agreement, but my ex was the primary cause he had a more stable wage than me, so that if this did happen he would be the most realistic person to keep the place due to his wage.

    He does have friends in town, one of them whom we attended their wedding this June, in addition to another friend who helped us out a bit when we were initially finding places here. I did immediately say yes to him, as I wanted to help, and the point of me being on the lease was also obligatory to help as well. Just started thinking more about it and if it was really necessary for me to be involved if it does come to it. But I understand your points for still helping if need be.

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    November 22, 2019 at 2:35 pm #860948

    So my ex wanted to chat last night, and we did, he told me he is leaving the city and moving back to the one we were living in prior to this move here. His work isn’t great, getting paid just enough and the work itself isn’t helping grow or learn more. He isn’t a fan of the city either, although we had discussed that before I broke up, so I knew he wasn’t a fan, but I guess after 4 months of him living in the city it hasn’t changed for him. He feels undervalued at his job, and his old workplace is apparently swamped with work and so he found out through an old coworker and was offered a position to go back there. He is leaving early December from what he told me.

    Reason he wanted to talk, the apartment we were renting together will have to be sublet as it is still under the 1 year rental agreement, and since my name is still on it, he asked me that in the worst case scenario if I could show the place if it is still vacant after he leaves. At first I said yes since I am still on the agreement (should have asked to be taken off), but now I am thinking if worst case scenario does happen, to see if he can get a friend to do it for him. I think it is a little unfair to wrap me back into this after he leaves and has me deal with a place I no longer contribute to. In addition the tenancy bylaws require the landlord to show the place, and not the past tenants, so hoping he can stronghold the landlord if he insists so I don’t get wrapped up in it.

    Alas, a lot of emotions were felt yesterday. As much as he has no reason to stay (in his own words), a part of me is still emotional and attached (only been 2 months), and so it was hard to hear the figurative door really slam close at the knowledge of him moving back across province to work and live, and really being separated and distanced from him. We haven’t talked up until yesterday, so we are keeping our word to remain unattached. But I think I still liked the knowledge of him being around the city and having some connection that way. A lot has changed in the last 4 months for him, moving, new job, new city, breakup and now moving again, and I can only imagine how he is managing and dealing with it. So my worries and sadness pale in comparison and I guess are selfish to feel upset on him leaving. But I wasn’t expecting it to happen so soon after. I knew he didn’t like the city and wondered if it would happen (him leaving), but not for a year at least. It just sucks.

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    November 11, 2019 at 3:43 pm #858657

    @scorpio Glad to hear you have some distractions and things to look forward to already 🙂 Best of luck and keep us posted how you are doing 🙂 The holidays are always tricky when the presence of someone is no longer there, but you seem to have it filled with just as many people that make you happy!

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    November 10, 2019 at 6:10 pm #858471

    Being newly single as well (just shy of 2 months now), I know how it feels to end something when so many others things fell into place. Your situation is definitely unique, as it wasn’t so much either of you falling out of love, or not being compatible, rather him needing to explore more on his own. So although I can say I know how you feel, I won’t know the exact feelings as they are unique in your situation.

    But please know you are not alone. Make sure to really keep to that no contact rule, get back into more social events (holiday events are full blown at the moment, go for dinner, drinks, events with friends). If you find yourself thinking too much about him or the situation, write yourself a mantra to go to when you are feeling down. Also, podcasts help a lot to distract.

    I really hope you are doing okay, you are not alone, and stay strong! Do things you couldn’t when you were with him, and I would even suggest a few counselling sessions to just help sort your thoughts and have a truly third party weigh in on things. Self care!!!

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    November 1, 2019 at 7:53 pm #857034

    @hfantods to step in on the move in question, when my ex and I decided to move in (albeit briefly), we jointly looked at what we were both willing to pay rent wise and our ideal commute. We found places within that price range, and then within that ideal commute range too. We moved across province, but we did downsize a lot of stuff, as most of it was either bought or given used, and so we didn’t have a huge attachment to it. We kept the stuff that we needed (ie kitchen wears and certain furniture) but then jointly split the cost of new stuff (ie couch, BBQ, shelving etc).

    We ended up having good timing, as he lived on his own for August before I moved in at the end of the month. So for you and your BF see if there is a good time frame for when your lease ends and maybe have one of you move in before the other if they aren’t at the same time.

    I would definitely go over the list from Wendy’s page with him, that way he is also aware of what has been done and discussed to date, but also make sure there isn’t a tight timeline for finding a place so you both aren’t pressured (I can tell you, having one month to look across province was hard!).

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    October 29, 2019 at 2:56 pm #856417

    @Copa, I agree. It had crossed my mind after we broke up whether I had left prematurely and given up too quickly. But having dealt with this issue for 6 months and getting pretty much no where with regards to improvements made I was still glad that I had ended it when I did despite the circumstances.

    My thought on mentioning or even considering this internally for the future is more around the idea of him addressing those shortcomings and improving himself. If he turns out to be more than vanilla, I wouldn’t be opposed to trying again if we were in the same boat of being single and interested. This again would be a year or two down the line. I have no intent to date at the moment, and want to work on myself through counselling to deal with some of the personal issues that arose during the relationship.

    I will not be contacting him to put this in his head, I am just going to leave it be as a passing thought for myself.

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    October 29, 2019 at 12:56 pm #856395

    Thanks, I appreciate the thoughts. I wouldn’t consider again anytime soon. Mainly because I know time between us needs to happen so we can fix ourselves. I have things I want to work on. Was more or less a year or two down the line if that ever came to it.

    I do agree though that it probably isn’t a good idea. I can see how suggesting it to him may impact how we both move on successfully. I can also see the issue or him not addressing it when we were together. I never really understood why he didn’t put more effort and wasn’t more open. So it does upset me that it came to this, and his experiences will be with others, and not me when we were together. It says alot about his own ideas and outlook on sex. I would like to think he will actively practice and change for his sake and future partners.

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    October 28, 2019 at 9:49 pm #856286

    So I want to gather some thoughts from others here about my ex and I.

    As context, the reason I decided to end things was because of the lack of chemistry in the bedroom. I had been in counselling the last 6 months or so this year to help with some of my own emotional regulation, but to also talk about this particular issue between us. So we had been working and talking about our sex life and what I needed for 6 months prior to moving in together this September. Basically, I wasn’t happy with the sex, it was very vanilla for me and didn’t have enough variety, passion and chemistry in the bedroom. We were physical in public, ie PDA, and we were affectionate elsewhere, but the bedroom life just seemed to be stagnant. I told him things I needed, and also told him to tell me what he wanted to try (as he was less experienced than me).

    When we broke up I had realized that the lack of satisfaction in the bedroom affected me emotionally more than I realized. So I felt it was necessary to end it for the sake of my sanity and happiness. He told me the night we ended things that he had wanted to try stuff but was nervous about bringing it up (I had made sure he knew I was GGG, and asked him about things he wanted to try, but he didn’t provide much for me).

    So, tonight, I had to go to his place to pick something of mine up, and he apologized to me about how he acted after the break up, as we were living together for over a week till I could find a place. He said he was trying to emotionally disconnect to protect himself, but also realized it wasn’t kind to me either. I said thank you for the apology, and yes I understood we were not in the best situation after, but he did act a bit immaturely at times.

    Then he also apologized and acknowledged his lack of openness with our sex life. Said in talking with a friend he realized that his past sexual experiences were very tame and vanilla and just assumed that’s how it was (not sure why after 2 years and me trying to coax it out of him to open up he still thought that). Regardless, he acknowledged openly he was not fair in the bedroom. I said thank you, and repeated my frustrations that I had told him prior, and that I hope he is able to explore more on his own that he should explore and see what he likes considering his lack of experience.

    Leaving that conversation, I was happy and also relieved that he had been thinking about what happened, acknowledged his faults and that he had things to work on.

    My question is, should I let him know that I am open to potentially re visiting our relationship. Caveat being, if he manages to explore and learn more about his own sexual interests, and thinks he can bring something more to the table in the future. At the end of the day, the sex stuff was the biggest deal breaker for me. He knew this. The fact that this finally came to a head for me was hard, as we did have a lot of commonalities and chemistry otherwise (ie same values, future plans, interests, lifestyle, personality, emotional support, etc).

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