MissD

@TheHizzy unless you’re being extremely frugal (which is cool), $112 isn’t a lot to spend on a dress that may or may not work out. Haven’t your ordered clothes online before (I do all the time lol)? Usually they’re great, once in a while they aren’t.

I ordered my dress online. I was a little nervous about the size but it came and fits perfectly. Don’t even need to alter it. It is now sitting in the back of my mom’s closet. She insisted on keeping it safe and out of the way haha. Man I actually feel quite silly talking about a dress when I’m not even officially engaged yet.

Thank you to everyone following me!!

@TheHizzy it does feel different.

There have been many times where I’ve been scared that he will disappoint me (all my own insecurities because of my ex), but he never has.

Whenever I have brought up something serious, he has never avoided the topic or tried to get out of discussing things.

He has been excited for me to meet his friends, even invited me to that wedding in Italy and thanked me for coming.

He has told his family all about me and shown them my picture, even his mom. He’s always affectionate. He always holds my hand.

He goes out of his way to take care of me… for example taking the bus 1.5 hours from Gatwick airport to Heathrow airport to meet me so we could travel to our hotel together.

He’s the one that has asked me 3 times to move. He sends me postcards when he travels for work. He says out loud that he loves me.

I could write a list as long as my arm. Basically he is the extreme opposite of my ex in every way.

Well considering what has happened to me in the past, changing his mind is always a possibility. My ex and I had actually agreed on a timeline to get engaged, he said he was cool with it. I told him I’d like to go ring shopping together, he kept putting it off. I asked if he was waiting for something, or if he felt like there was something he needed to accomplish first and he said no, he wasn’t waiting for anything. A few months later I asked him again where he was at and I couldn’t get a straight answer out of him. He finally told me that he hated my family.

Then again, he acted like a dick towards me in the 8 months between agreeing to get engaged and me finally leaving him.

So I dunno. My only life experience with this kind of thing is that guys say they want something and then change their minds but don’t tell you and just treat you like shit instead so that you’ll do the dirty work of breaking up.

Sometimes you just can’t help but let old insecurities resurface, even though you’ve moved on. Especially in a time of change and transition.

@TheHizzy I feel impatient now that I finally decided for sure that I am moving and we have a timeline. He is the one who brought up the marriage timeline and I completely agreed with his suggestion, but I did tell him it’s important to me that we’re engaged before I quit my job and move across the ocean.

But now that we’ve had that conversation and we have our timeline, I’m just excited and feeling like ahhhhhh I’m ready now!

@Copa my city has a population of probably around 1 Million. Not sure how many people are actually on Tinder though, cuz I’d usually run out of people to swipe after 3 days.