Covid Support Thread
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Hfantods: So sorry to hear about your aunt. My condolences. It’s starting to bug me how the wrong people die. How the wrong people live. Self included.
I’ve been in a real funk all week.
I thought I’d successfully applied for unemployment. But no. So yay! Have to do it all over again. Ugh. I’ve spent some 15 hours already applying. It seems pointless at this point. Today I was on hold for two hours, only to get a Please Call Back Later CLICK!
More — work now wants to shoot a “small movie” asap. (So in June, I guess.) They think its best we do a super small crew —- um, okay… meaning me and one other person for the ENTIRE art/props department. Um – okay. We’re already stretched wayyyyyy to thin with 4…
Oh and —- of course! —- their idea of a small, easy movie is a god damn wedding flick! WTF? Meaning the movie has a fabulous bridal shower scene. A groom’s dinner. And then some dreamy, fabulous wedding.
Um… there’s nothing SMALL about any of that. Oh and (of course!) the main character/wedding planner is very type A. A perfectionist. Meaning its all to be super duper fabulous.
So me — and ONE other person is somehow supposed to pull all this off? Ugh. Fuck me. Seriously. Just fuck me.
I am constantly expected to do more and more with less and less —- for less and less.
Really angry and frustrated right now. Everything sucks. Dan Savage lies. It doesn’t get better. It only gets worse and worse. And worse.
Sigh.
Hfantods: So sorry to hear about your aunt. My condolences. It’s starting to bug me how the wrong people die. How the wrong people live. Self included.
I’ve been in a real funk all week.
I thought I’d successfully applied for unemployment. But no. So yay! Have to do it all over again. Ugh. I’ve spent some 15 hours already applying. It seems pointless at this point. Today I was on hold for two hours, only to get a Please Call Back Later CLICK!
More — work now wants to shoot a “small movie” asap. (So in June, I guess.) They think its best we do a super small crew —- um, okay… meaning me and one other person for the ENTIRE art/props department. Um – okay. We’re already stretched wayyyyyy to thin with 4…
Oh and —- of course! —- their idea of a small, easy movie is a god damn wedding flick! WTF? Meaning the movie has a fabulous bridal shower scene. A groom’s dinner. And then some dreamy, fabulous wedding.
Um… there’s nothing SMALL about any of that. Oh and (of course!) the main character/wedding planner is very type A. A perfectionist. Meaning its all to be super duper fabulous.
So me — and ONE other person is somehow supposed to pull all this off? Ugh. Fuck me. Seriously. Just fuck me.
I am constantly expected to do more and more with less and less —- for less and less.
Really angry and frustrated right now. Everything sucks. Dan Savage lies. It doesn’t get better. It only gets worse and worse. And worse.
Sigh.
Hfantods I’m so sorry, I hope you’re as ok as can be expected.
Otherwise I had a rather sobering moment dur9ng a work call on Thursday. My manager was talking about how he’s been struggling with mental health being isolated etc and my two other team mates agreed they were struggling with lack of friend time and social time and I was like ‘huh I’ve been generally ok with it which is weird as I’m a huge extrovert’. It hit me later that I’m ok with it because every time we move I’m in isolation with no friends stuck at home by myself while my husband goes to work (until I get a job) and THAT set me off. Like how did my life become so frickin sad. Anyway, it’s come in useful now I guess.
Helen I know you won’t see this for now but I’m rooting for you.
I was thinking yesterday about how all the young people who write in with their Skype only relationships are probably sitting pretty now.
I’m an introvert (who can party for limited periods of time) and I was fine with this at first, Now it’s getting to my mental health. The longer it goes on, the more I withdraw and don’t want to talk to anyone. I did a couple zoom things with friends but just wanted them to be over. My friend texted me about coming by today and we could talk out the window, but I said no. I just couldn’t imagine trying to make conversation. I don’t even enjoy taking a walk anymore now that masks are mandatory in my city (why?? We can easily stay more than 6 feet apart. People with masks get in each other’s personal space on the sidewalk more than without). It’s hard to really breathe with a mask on. And it’s like, they’re mandatory in Cambridge but not in Boston? Oh, ok. And for 9 hours a day I sit in front of a computer and have Zoom meetings. It makes your head explode. I used to go in the office 2-3 days a week and the day was broken up with in-person meetings, walking around from room to room, getting a salad, etc. Staring at a laptop for 9 hours straight isn’t normal or healthy.
And it’s depressing because how can we go out when things open up without infecting lots more people? How can it be done safely if there’s no testing?? Why aren’t we at a point where we can just drive up and get a test and some chicken nuggets at McDonald’s? I want to visit my parents or my aunt, but how can I do that unless I know if I’m infected or not? This is just such a shitshow.
And this is Massachusetts! We have Harvard doctors. We have all these hospitals. The health system was never overwhelmed. How is it possible that we haven’t yet heard what the plan actually is for safely reopening, and when? How do they not know? This isn’t okay.
Kate, because you are never going to be able to make it totally safe. Testing, well no test is 100 percent accurate. And remember this virus is highly infecious.
Flattening the curve just means stretching out the same number of deaths over time unless you quickly find an effective treatment. And the vaccine, well there has never been a medically viable vaccine for any cronavirus. And they have tried. Maybe with the amount of money they are throwing at it they will get one but I am not holding my breath.
I feel pretty bleak about the future, too. Mainly because this crisis has laid bare just how fucking stupid most people are. It’s profoundly depressing to me just how truly dimwitted most everybody is.
More — they’re somehow all making way more money than me.
I feel so washed up. No, correction. I am so washed up. Yep, yep, yep. I could sure use a nice handy run in with a drunk driver about now. Or maybe a semi. Just something big, fast, and going the wrong way as it plows head-on into my minicooper. Just take me out already, world. I’m done.
I don’t think we need a test that’s literally 100% accurate in order to get things going again safely. We need testing that’s widely available. Contact tracing. A system. An actual data-driven understanding of infection rates and mortality. What I was saying two months ago should be happening and still isn’t even close. The answer is not, everybody stay home, and it’s also not, everyone go out and go about your business again except the old and the chronically ill. Let’s use science.
So a college friend of mine is a surgeon now. He posted a really bleak status update on Facebook recently explaining why a vaccine isn’t going to be the knight in shining armor so many people are expecting it to be. I didn’t understand all of the science he wrote about or the studies he linked to, but he thinks we need to brace ourselves for prolonged social distancing or ebbs and flows of infection until we have an annual vaccine combined with effective anti-virals. Which is depressing to think about because we’re so far away from that.
And then being in a big city… I just don’t know how we can reopen safely anytime soon. I’d actually be okay going back to work if I had a car to get around. My office is a small satellite office, few staff members in a relatively large space, I have my own office, etc. But riding public transit during rush hour like it used to be? No thanks! My boss thinks the earliest Chicago staff will be returning to the office is mid-July, but that’s just his guess.
Anyway, it all sucks and the uncertainty is hard.
