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Anyone else having trouble swallowing their rage at the “COVID is hoax!” crowd? Or perhaps the “I know and understand everything about how dangerous COVID is but am having Thanksgiving with 5 different households anyways because I don’t want to disappoint my family” people? Any tips for getting through this?
Who are you and what have you done with BitterGayMark?
Just kidding. It’s nice to hear the positivity.
A slice of that desert sounds great as we drudge through the endless cold gray that is a Minnesota November. I was able to visit Phoenix last December in the Before-Times and it made all the difference in the world.
Thanks Helen. My mom is healing up nicely – way better than I expected to be honest. That sucks that your dad has been lost to Fox brainwashing. One of the biggest takeaways through all of this is that I never really fully understood how powerful the far-right propaganda channels really are. It’s absolutely devastating. I can’t imagine how much that hurts for you.
I get where your mom is coming from, wanting to see the kids. My mom adores my daughter. They used to spend a ton of time together and it breaks my heart that they don’t get to do that anymore. I still bring her by for quick, physically distant visits but I know it’s just not the same for either of them.
Impotent Rage is the perfect description of the last 9 months. Nothing to do but talk about our feelings with strangers on the internet.
@Helen – that sucks. My dad has pretty serious COPD and emphesyma, in addition to being just plain old, so he absolutely CANNOT get it. I’m so very grateful my parents are taking our seriously. My mom broke her foot and needs help, so I can’t be as socially distant as I want. But we ain’t hanging out. Thanksgiving is basically cancelled for us this year.
It sucks a lot, but I’m thankful for them. I can’t imagine how hard it would be to be in your shoes.
Maybe it’s just because we’re entering the “record breaking number of cases every day” and “sorry our hospitals are full” stage of the pandemic, especially here in the midwest, but this shit is really getting to me today. I’m never going to get to hug my parents again, am I?
I’m experiencing so much rage when I see mask deniers or herd immunity proponents. I have things to do but I can’t concentrate on any of them because I’m just…so…mad…
My state (MN) has been pretty good about precautions, but we’re literally surrounded by states that have done jack shit. Plus every time Tr*mp visits cases go up from his stupid rallies.
Welcome back, AON! Glad to hear you’re on the rising side of things. That sounds like a very difficult set of weeks and months.
@BGM I feel you. It’s very hard to imagine 4 or more years of this. I definitely feel a big urge to “not live on this planet anymore”. I’m fine – I’m not going to do anything. But damn, I hate being alive right now.
The only comfort I feel sometimes is I look at people who have left just absolutely devastated regions and lives and built themselves up. I think “if they can get past that, I should be able to handle this.”
My biggest mental health trap has always been “big evil thinking”. When I look at the immense cruelty that occurs on such a large level, I get stuck in a really negative thought loop that takes me to really, really dark places. I have to be careful to not indulge it too much and everything I’ve learned in therapy has really been put to the test this year.
@MissMJ I feel you so hard. I’ve gone through a lot of swings over this whole nonsense and I’m definitely feeling like it’s a low point now. My state has been ok at managing it, but it doesn’t seem like schools are ready to go back in session.
And our President is so. Fucking. Stupid. He’s still on about lowering testing to make our numbers look better. And 38% of people are still like “yeah, that’s my guy.”
If he wins again (by electoral college shenanigans or simply cheating), how are we going to survive this? Our national trajectory will be what? We just keep letting people die for another 4 years? Eventually they will stop paying for testing and treating it and now not only will it possibly be death sentence, it will also bankrupt anyone who contracts it who isn’t already a millionaire.
I’m just so out of hope for the future.
Hey @Copa, are you running InDesign CS5 by any chance? I have to use InDesign CS5 for my work for comically stupid reasons, and I think I have similar issues to what you’re describing.
We had a bunch of idiots in my state protesting our stay at home order. Here in MN we’ve got the lowest cases per capita and these fucking morons out here gathering in groups without protective gear getting to change that.
I just can’t with these people. I just want to blast off this planet forever when I see this nonsense.
Yesterday I experienced what I would call an almost violent depression. I just couldn’t move the first few hours of the day. I curled into as tiny of a ball that I could manage and just cried. Then I went through the typical guilt because “I have it pretty good compared to a lot of people” and then felt pretty worse. It got a bit better throughout the day but never really felt better. I’ve dealt with depression for a long time but this is the worst it’s been in a very, very long time.
Today is more of an anxiety day, which I have an easier time dealing with. I can keep myself busy when I feel anxious, but depression is just so all-consuming and motivation crushing. So it’s overall a lot better, relatively speaking.
This pandemic has really managed to shine a light on the fact that most of the time, our bosses are really not our friends. I’m pretty lucky in that most of the opposition to working from home has been in middle-management. It seems that the people at the top of the food chain are the ones pushing to work from home if possible.
I’m finally able to start working remotely today. I hope it goes well – I’m a bit anxious about it because I can be easily distracted by my family’s needs, and I don’t really have a good private area to work at all.
